Ridiculous!

April Fool! Hah, so what? I'm never interested in telling a lie on this particular day to make fun of somebody. Does fooling people considered as a sense of victory too? Well, I never experienced it before as I am always the one being fooled around. What to do? Innocent girl, you know. ;) But what I'm doing right now seem exactly unbelievable and ridiculous as if I am lying on April Fool.

Sometimes, things happened around are just hard to explain. Out of a sudden, I am so into a program. Then becoming the manager and photographer of two contestants. Further more, focusing on something I ain't suppose to before my major first semester exam. Ridiculous, isn't it? It might me an experience worth to gain in life as it only happens once in a blue moon, but I have no idea what is inside my mind right now. All in a mess. (Four flat dream is ruined T^T)

I somehow wonder, am I being too arrogant or having too much confidence in myself? Why can I keep on believing that all things are going to turn out good at the end of the day? Even getting a good result without studying? I hate this feeling. Oh come on, make me a peacock without feathers! Save me out of this wonderland and make me treasure every single hours that I have left to give my last push. Isn't what happened in SPM a good lesson already? Why didn't I wake up right away?

Oh Lord, give me the strength to succumb temptations. 

Give me the wisdom in managing my time.

Make me a person who strive for what I want.