Tuesday, December 13, 2011

How to say No?


“No” is never an easy answer. It’s rude, unhelpful, cold-blooded, selfish and etc for some, and saying NO means kicking out the kind person role and playing the evil role. Which is why, most of us stuck in the junction of choices, afraid of voicing out the true voice within.

If you choose the opposite of NO, that’s YES. You might be seen as a helpful and kind-hearted person but not to forget the effort you have to put in behind scene,for the promises that you afraid to reject, the task you unwillingly accepted. Well, it’s not really that bad to say YES sometimes but it depends on one’s self-capability. Do not go beyond the limit. Not in all cases that you will be seen as the super kind person. In certain cases, people take opportunities over you and start slave-driving you. If at that point of time, NO is still a hard word to say, then I‘ll say, it serves you right.

Saying NO might equal to mean but for self-benefit aspect, you are really saving your own life. You do not have to spend extra time cracking your head and anxious for the promises you had picky swore. It’s completely freedom. But, do prepare for the criticism from others after turning them down. They might hate you and sneer you at your back. This is the consequence of the mighty powerful word because the evil role started playing once N.O was said.

No and Yes, a choice between the role you are about to take up. Should one consider other people’s thinking more or putting self as priority?


Wednesday, December 7, 2011

I'm Officially 18

No more underage kid, no more bank book but officially a credit card holder because I have finally turned 18! Hurray!
Still, I'm way younger than a lots of people!

My 18th Surprise Party!
The spec team...
Thank you
Joanna, Zhen Wen and Eugene
Wishing~
不能说的秘密
Had dinner together...
Cooked by three of them
We had Japenese Curry, Broccoli, Salmon Mushroom and Ham plus egg
Delicious, isnt it?
My new spec...oppsy daddy n mommy
That was really an unexpected Birthday Party. It was one day before my actual Birthday, and Joanna made me believe that there is the existence of David who ended up becoming three of them, giving me a great surprise with a cake and Birthday song. 

This is my first birthday away from home, first birthday during school time which required to shake hand with many people but I received more wishes, first birthday without old buddies but with new awesome friendly friends. I can only say that, all the wishes you all gave, had really blessed my day. =)

One from Joanna and the other from Jaznie
Originally, my classmate wanted to organize a small party for 3 birthday people but I refused to join in as it was inconvenience for me to travel during night time. I also rejected the other 2 birthday guys plus Zac who had his birthday yesterday (according to western calendar, today is still his birthday) invited me to join them at Indian restaurant for self celebration. Even my chinese male's gang were being turned down as I would rather have the time for my revision to celebrating my birthday. Wow. Listing them down make me feel more guilty. I'm sorry but I never mean to make it the memorable day of the year.

To my surprise again, two taiwanese friends showed up at the door. From dropping by to give me the presents to sitting down comfortably chit-chatting, a long ordinary night had passed. We all really had great conversations talking about Malaysia and Taiwan hot spots and food, stars, songs and etc.

Taiwanese friends, Tracy and Jason
Present from Jason & Tracy
My 2nd Bday cake
Cheesecake again~ Yay~
Throughout these eighteen years, God's blessing has never ended. Although I'm alone at foreign land, I'm still blessed with lovely friends who cheer with me. Thank you Lord for my parents and hence, there is me.

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Potter's Hand




Oh take me, mold me, use me, fill me
I give my life to the potter's hand

Oh call me, guide me, lead me, walk beside me
I give my life to the potter's hand


As I sang the chorus during today's morning service,my eyes turns watery. Deep inside my heart, I said, 'Yes Lord, you are the author of my life. Take me, mold me, use me, fill me; call me, guide me, lead me, walk beside me. I know you have a plan in me.'

Our God is really thoughtful. He understand me more than anyone else do, especially this time when I'm mentally weak. My thought are constantly being hunted by all kinds of things that distract me from study, which indirectly making me anxious for the up coming semester exam. Most of the time I can only sit there holding my books and not absorbing in a single word. All I can do was only WORRY. How can I not worry?

But God silently sent His messengers to me, constantly remind  me of His presence. He used Ewen's personal testimony to tell how much He cares about his child. During today's praise and worship, when we sang the Potter's Hand, it was like singing out the voice trapped within that I have nowhere to expel out. At the same time, another voice told me, 'I'm your shelter, come to me and I shall give you shalom'. Not only so, He used today's sermon--Psalm 23 to speak to me again.

God has been constantly comforting me and reassuring me that He'll guide me through. Why shall I worry and not cast all my anxieties unto Jesus. Isn't He is the God that makes impossible possible? Amen.

Psalm 23

A psalm of David.
 1 The LORD is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
 2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
 3 he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
   for his name’s sake.
4 Even though I walk
   through the valley of the shadow of death
, 
I will fear no evil, 
   for you are with me; 
your rod and your staff, 
   they comfort me.
 5 You prepare a table before me
   in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
   my cup overflows.
6 Surely your goodness and love will follow me
   all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
   forever.


Saturday, December 3, 2011

Red Cheeks

Volunteer and courageous might be good but when we talk about capability and embarrassment, it's completely another thing. I just publicly embarrassed myself with my off-pitch singing skill, ended the worship part with red cheeks. Gosh~! aaa...

Without in-born music talent and  the stable music foundation, I am super easy to be influenced by others' key. So, instead of singing the key I'm more comfortable (oh yea...my key always goes according to what I am comfortable with), I simply change my key in between. Funny...hard for me to tell how dummy I am in music. For the moment, I am still suffering from the post phobia which is the reason why I am sealing my throat and mouth. 

Shy shy shy

Friday, December 2, 2011

那些年,我们一起追的女孩



 错过的不能再拥有,拥有的不会流失



甜蜜的那些年只限于那仅仅的回忆,是那么执著,热血和浪漫。为了平起平坐而发奋途强,用尽千方百计地接近,似乎三十六计都使遍,连空城计也派上了用场。却因为害怕接受答案而错失了第一次的机会,奢想停留在暧昧又再度错失了机会。而一时的逞不过气,却划破了任何存在的机会,让彼此之间永远画了句号,导致童话没有了续集。但就因曾经拥有过的点点滴滴才如此深刻的烙印在彼此的心海里,把之间的关系锁定于最佳好友。地震后的坦白只能让读者盼望着剧情的转变。落空的,只能看到婚礼上的新郎不是他。

泪水从双颊留下,还是会为着这错过的爱情感到万分惋惜。是该学习乐观地感激过去的一切还是为着那本该是新郎的主角心痛呢?倘若我是导演,我肯定会让他们的爱情有个续篇,不白白浪费了年少的付出。但,就因九把刀的不完美结局才体现出了故事的完美和特别。把最美好的回忆都封锁在那些年里头。

能在茫茫人海中相遇已是福份,若能一起拥有过那些美好的记忆,那还有什么好奢望?错失或许是一种遗憾但也可以是一个更好的准备。或许是上天的旨意,在前方预备了更好的人。



好想马上看着部电影吖~~~

---三大名言--- 
衣带渐宽终不悔,为伊消得人憔悴

昨夜西风凋碧树,独上高楼,望尽天涯路


众厘寻他千百度,蓦然回首,那人却在灯火阑珊之处



P.S: 我的华文老师说我的HSK(汉语水平)可以直接报考第六级了!哇哈哈!