This is going to be a great year for me

As a medic student, my life seem pretty relaxing since I still have spare time to involve myself in other activities like fellowship and church. Recently, I signed up as a volunteer for the house riding therapy lead by my church sister to help the disable kids to slowly recover or getting better from the illness that they are suffering from.

My lovely Saturday morning started off with my volunteer work's training at the outskirt which is 30minutes drive from town. Just to remind you if you didn't know, I'm anti-pets. But this is really an exceptional case since I have to build up the relationship with horse before ordering it. So surprisingly, horse become the first animal I have to approach and be friend. Imaging I was brushing, cleaning, feeding, leading and riding. What a big gap I had crossed!

Kathleen, our head and Nora

Taking a memorable photo with the 4yrs old Blackie. Well, Blackie is really a naughty lazy horse for me.

Wong and our horse trainer, Sarah

We all get to ride on the horse like that, which is how our horse riding therapy is going to look like. One person leading the horse, two people walking at the sides protecting and the child will sit on the horse. =)

It was really an awesome first time experience with horses. While riding on the horse for the first time, I felt myself being swung slightly from side to side like a pendulum bulb as the back leg muscles of the horse moved. The first thing I did was to cast off my fear and try to relax by having more faith in the horse. Well, I just miraculously balanced myself on the horse's back like that.

Of course, we were trained to help the disable children and I had heard a lot of slight recovery resulted from this therapy. According to Kathleen, riding horse is like standing on a house with both your legs hanging straight down at the two sides of the horse. With that, it somehow brings alone the rider to move their legs according to the flow of motion of the horse walking. This really helps a lot in loosening the tight thigh muscle.

At the end of the morning session, I just smelled like a horse!

Anyway, we still managed to rush back home for our fellowship. We were so blessed to have one aunty from Taiwan to have a small sharing and bible study with us today. Somehow, through her, God revealed me more things. She said, I'm blessed with the gift of healing. The power of healing which is needed by this people I am with currently, to play out the role as a seed in this province. God has been continuously revealing me a lot of things within this two months and I really thank God for all that he had shown to me through people around me. Still, I will continue to pray for sharp ears and may God reveal me more things that I should know.

Another great news! I was cheering happily when I know that the aunty is going to have a revolution concert with the help from Taiwanese artist (like JJ, F.I.R. and etc.) in my place in December if everything works according to plan. Under my request, the aunty is going to help me to ask Fan Fan and Hei Ren to join in. That's so awesome! That will probably be my first concert if I'm able to join. I would be more than wiling to offer myself as the backstage helper. Haha.. Hopefully I get to know a korean who knows SNSD one day. XD

Greater things are yet to come

Greater things are still to be done in this city

Depend On God...Faith like Jeremy Lin

If you had read my previous post, you probably know that I was pacing the floor, earnestly seeking from an answer from God. I knelt down, facing the wall and prayed sincerely, asking God to reveal me the thing that I had done wrong and also for a pair of ears that are able to recognize His voice.

Minutes later, I was trying to revise but couldn't move into my study mood and nothing seems to be absorbed into my mind. Instead of wasting my time starring at the same page, I reached my laptop, tried to find something to do and then, I remembered the link of Jeremy Lin's faith given by friend that I have not read. 

While reading a certain part, I was actually laughing and tearing at the same moment. I am not sure if that's really what God wanted to reveal to me, but it just got me to a sense of shouting out BINGO!

Unlike Jeremy who lift up all the glory to God, I'm probably too concern about self-glory. Compete to win, so that I'll be lifted up high with pride. My failure in becoming top in my first semester doesn't really teach me to step back and rely on God. Instead, it rekindle the dirty oil in me to prove people how smart I could have been. Nothing more than self, self, self, SELF!

I wonder if that's the reason why I hardly move into study mood all these days. Perhaps, it's a warning from God to stop me, and let me realize the right motive behind study is for His glory not mine. I should really really lean on Him.

After reading Jeremy's faith, I have seen how God has perfectly planned his life. He said, if he was given a chance to return to his highschool, he wouldn't worry this much but enjoy as much as possible because God has a perfect plan in him. I believe, this plan doesn't limited to him alone but for whoever who believes. 

Proverbs 3:5-6

TRUST in the Lord with all your heart,

not lean on your own understanding;

in all ways acknowledge Him,

and He will make your path straight.

It's similar to Facing The Giant, but I have never really get the real message from the story until today.  "I want God to bless this team so much people will talk about what He did. But it means we gotta give Him our best in every area. And if we win, we praise Him. And if we lose, we praise Him. Either way we honor Him with our actions and our attitudes. So I'm askin' you... What are you living for? I resolve to give God everything I've got, then I'll leave the results up to Him. I want to know if you'll join me. " 

- Facing the Giant (2006)-

Aint abot how high i'll achieve 

But as long as I give in my best

By faith it shall be accomplished

And it'll not be judged by win or lose

Depend On God

There's one thing she said to me, that keep bothering me to ponder over it. God through her revealed to me 3 words (she was told while she was praying for me), DEPEND ON GOD. She said I'll suffer from a certain fall in my life for I'm being too stubborn holding on a certain thing too tightly, but I couldn't come up with the idea which thing was the thing mentioned. The "fall" mentioned somehow scared me too. How I wish God talks to me directly.

God, reveal me the truth
I ask for a pair of ears that recognize your voice

such a nice date 22/02/12

Acts of kindness

This afternoon after my morning class, I helped my friend to become the temporary tour guide to bring her family to a shopping hot-spot (I was about to go there too). I have to admit that it was really tiring especially for a lousy shopper like me, but I did enjoyed the moment helping, chatting and accompanying them.

After that, we went separate way back home. I went into the bus but the bus driver doesn't want to accept my big note. While i was scratching my head, busy asking around the passengers in the bus for small notes, a middle aged lady touched my shoulder and passed me 2RMB. That 2RMB probably doesn't worth much but at that moment of time, it meant a lot. I could do nothing more than sincerely thank her.

On the same day, when I was queuing up in a grocery store with one hand carrying 4L mineral water and the other hand holding my milk, the security guard at the front door came to me and offered himself to carry the heavy water. The only respond I was able to give was, "wow, thanks!"

These continuous little kindness somehow give me a warm feel and a smile plus a realization that the world ain't all filled with heartless people. So spread this chain of kindness around.

Let this little kindness begins from you today. :)

I Offer My Life To You

J.O.Y. It could be the exact adjective to express myself for all these while that I have been missing. Well, it doesn't imply that I had a wonderful smooth life. There are things that hurt me, like the particular subject that I didn't score well. But when I try to see it from the other perspective, perhaps God is trying to remind me to step back and allow Him to step forward. For I have been living a life way too self-centered where everything is conquered by myself.

The J.O.Y that I meant to write today began from my journey of returning back to the old well-recognized place called home. Although my life back in there seems pretty lifeless with korean drama in a long queue as usual, I also spent my time hanging out with my old friends, make sure I'm still updated. The major gain from this return was few packages of chinese traditional herbs and some Malaysia can food prepared by my mom. Ha...it's definitely more than that. I had wonderful time listening to my friend's personal testimony, and again, she inspired me and reminded me the spirit that was once burning inside of me. I called this return a recharge!

There's a book that plays the metal role in forcing me to exit my slumberland and move out from my cozy warm blanket each morning. Obviously, that ain't any ordinary book, not just because it was given by my buddy but it brings me closer to Him each waking morning. As I read the book daily, it slowly guides me through the journey of finding out the divine purpose of life. I would like to have my book pass around so that all my friends can gain from it and my room mate was my first partner. Thank God for making her willing to spend some time on it.

Just today, I signed up myself for my church's ministry program. There was an ambiguous feeling at first with all kinds of worries pop into mind. Though worries has no solutions yet but I just want to offer myself so that I can help a little in His ministry. Will update on this when it begins. Do stay tune! ;)

"The glory of ministry is on the people through what they had transformed" and "Go for the depth not numbers". That were the two sentences that captured me in this morning's sermon. It reminds me of the focus I should have locked on while involving myself in any kind of ministry. I have came to know that, it's planting and caring that makes a seed grows into a towering tree, not just by scattering the seed.

There's a sentence that keep echoing in my ear,
because I'm GREATER!