Come What May

Words for 2012

2012-01-12T01:57:00.001+08:00

An ending of the chapter continue by the beginning of a new chapter, that's just the custom. Pages by pages, we are moving up the incline line of the plot of life, trying to reach to the top. Whenever we think that we had defeated the peak of the mountain, we never really know if that's the highest peak in life or just part of the peaks that we have to go through. But what I had understood is, it doesn't matter what the height of the peak is but cherish whenever you had defeated the uphill battle.

- By Ms Envira Lee-

I couldn't assure 2011 is the best year ever but I can assure that, it's a year full of nostalgic memories. From graduating from secondary school to college year and finally university year, I had experienced so many phases and get know to so many new friends from different background one shot. It's a year of growing to be more mature and independent, seek and found and lost again but still, unable to learn from the lesson. I see people around changing and growing, hoping one day I can do the same.

I left no regret for how far I had walked and where I am heading to is how much I had put in all these while. It's a basic principle of planting and ripping.

People ought to tell, new year new resolution. Although this resolution was 11days later than the announcing date, I will still like to try my best to keep it. Just a few so far that pop out in my mind, and of course, this list is editable and I have my right to keep it private. (Just 5 to share for the mo)

1. Keep slim as in maintaining my weight around 56kg

2. Become a study nerd (my pleasure)

3. Love myself

4. Daily morning devotion + quite time

5. Learn Korean Language

2012 is full of unfathomable stories but I'm all prepared to venture this new chapter.

How to say No?

2011-12-13T01:30:00.000+08:00

“No” is never an easy answer. It’s rude,unhelpful, cold-blooded, selfish and etc for some, and saying NO means kickingout the kind person role and playing the evil role. Which is why, most of usstuck in the junction of choices, afraid of voicing out the true voice within.

If you choose the opposite of NO, that’sYES. You might be seen as a helpful and kind-hearted person but not to forgetthe effort you have to put in behind scene,for the promises that you afraid toreject, the task you unwillingly accepted. Well, it’s not really that bad tosay YES sometimes but it depends on one’s self-capability. Do not go beyond thelimit. Not in all cases that you will be seen as the super kind person. Incertain cases, people take opportunities over you and start slave-driving you.If at that point of time, NO is still a hard word to say, then I‘ll say, itserves you right.

Saying NO might equal to mean but for self-benefitaspect, you are really saving your own life. You do not have to spend extratime cracking your head and anxious for the promises you had picky swore. It’scompletely freedom. But, do prepare for the criticism from others after turningthem down. They might hate you and sneer you at your back. This is the consequenceof the mighty powerful word because the evil role started playing once N.Owas said.

No and Yes, a choice between the role youare about to take up. Should one consider other people’s thinking more orputting self as priority?

I'm Officially 18

2011-12-07T17:59:00.001+08:00

No more underage kid, no more bank book but officially a credit card holder because I have finally turned 18! Hurray!

Still, I'm way younger than a lots of people!

My 18th Surprise Party!

The spec team...
Thank you
Joanna, Zhen Wen and Eugene

Wishing~
不能说的秘密

Had dinner together...
Cooked by three of them
We had Japenese Curry, Broccoli, Salmon Mushroom and Ham plus egg
Delicious, isnt it?

My new spec...oppsy daddy n mommy

That was really an unexpected Birthday Party. It was one day before my actual Birthday, and Joanna made me believe that there is the existence of David who ended up becoming three of them, giving me a great surprise with a cake and Birthday song.

This is my first birthday away from home, first birthday during school time which required to shake hand with many people but I received more wishes, first birthday without old buddies but with new awesome friendly friends. I can only say that, all the wishes you all gave, had really blessed my day. =)

One from Joanna and the other from Jaznie

Originally, my classmate wanted to organize a small party for 3 birthday people but I refused to join in as it was inconvenience for me to travel during night time. I also rejected the other 2 birthday guys plus Zac who had his birthday yesterday (according to western calendar, today is still his birthday) invited me to join them at Indian restaurant for self celebration. Even my chinese male's gang were being turned down as I would rather have the time for my revision to celebrating my birthday. Wow. Listing them down make me feel more guilty. I'm sorry but I never mean to make it the memorable day of the year.

To my surprise again, two taiwanese friends showed up at the door. From dropping by to give me the presents to sitting down comfortably chit-chatting, a long ordinary night had passed. We all really had great conversations talking about Malaysia and Taiwan hot spots and food, stars, songs and etc.

Taiwanese friends, Tracy and Jason

Present from Jason & Tracy
My 2nd Bday cake
Cheesecake again~ Yay~

Throughout these eighteen years, God's blessing has never ended. Although I'm alone at foreign land, I'm still blessed with lovely friends who cheer with me. Thank you Lord for my parents and hence, there is me.

Potter's Hand

2011-12-04T14:52:00.001+08:00

Oh take me, mold me, use me, fill me

I give my life to the potter's hand

Oh call me, guide me, lead me, walk beside me

I give my life to the potter's hand

As I sang the chorus during today's morning service,my eyes turns watery. Deep inside my heart, I said, 'Yes Lord, you are the author of my life. Take me, mold me, use me, fill me; call me, guide me, lead me, walk beside me. I know you have a plan in me.'

Our God is really thoughtful. He understand me more than anyone else do, especially this time when I'm mentally weak. My thought are constantly being hunted by all kinds of things that distract me from study, which indirectly making me anxious for the up coming semester exam. Most of the time I can only sit there holding my books and not absorbing in a single word. All I can do was only WORRY. How can I not worry?

But God silently sent His messengers to me, constantly remind me of His presence. He used Ewen's personal testimony to tell how much He cares about his child. During today's praise and worship, when we sang the Potter's Hand, it was like singing out the voice trapped within that I have nowhere to expel out. At the same time, another voice told me, 'I'm your shelter, come to me and I shall give you shalom'. Not only so, He used today's sermon--Psalm 23 to speak to me again.

God has been constantly comforting me and reassuring me that He'll guide me through. Why shall I worry and not cast all my anxieties unto Jesus. Isn't He is the God that makes impossible possible? Amen.

Psalm 23

A psalm of David.

¹ The LORD is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
² He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
³ he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
   for his name’s sake.
⁴ Even though I walk
   through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
   for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
   they comfort me.

⁵ You prepare a table before me
   in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
   my cup overflows.
⁶ Surely your goodness and love will follow me
   all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
   forever.

Red Cheeks

2011-12-03T20:24:00.001+08:00

Volunteer and courageous might be good but when we talk about capability and embarrassment, it's completely another thing. I just publicly embarrassed myself with my off-pitch singing skill, ended the worship part with red cheeks. Gosh~! aaa...

Without in-born music talent and the stable music foundation, I am super easy to be influenced by others' key. So, instead of singing the key I'm more comfortable (oh yea...my key always goes according to what I am comfortable with), I simply change my key in between. Funny...hard for me to tell how dummy I am in music. For the moment, I am still suffering from the post phobia which is the reason why I am sealing my throat and mouth.

Shy shy shy

那些年，我们一起追的女孩

2011-12-02T23:01:00.001+08:00

错过的不能再拥有，拥有的不会流失

甜蜜的那些年只限于那仅仅的回忆，是那么执著，热血和浪漫。为了平起平坐而发奋途强，用尽千方百计地接近，似乎三十六计都使遍，连空城计也派上了用场。却因为害怕接受答案而错失了第一次的机会，奢想停留在暧昧又再度错失了机会。而一时的逞不过气，却划破了任何存在的机会，让彼此之间永远画了句号，导致童话没有了续集。但就因曾经拥有过的点点滴滴才如此深刻的烙印在彼此的心海里，把之间的关系锁定于最佳好友。地震后的坦白只能让读者盼望着剧情的转变。落空的，只能看到婚礼上的新郎不是他。

泪水从双颊留下，还是会为着这错过的爱情感到万分惋惜。是该学习乐观地感激过去的一切还是为着那本该是新郎的主角心痛呢？倘若我是导演，我肯定会让他们的爱情有个续篇，不白白浪费了年少的付出。但，就因九把刀的不完美结局才体现出了故事的完美和特别。把最美好的回忆都封锁在那些年里头。

能在茫茫人海中相遇已是福份，若能一起拥有过那些美好的记忆，那还有什么好奢望？错失或许是一种遗憾但也可以是一个更好的准备。或许是上天的旨意，在前方预备了更好的人。

好想马上看着部电影吖~~~

---三大名言---

衣带渐宽终不悔，为伊消得人憔悴

昨夜西风凋碧树，独上高楼，望尽天涯路

众厘寻他千百度，蓦然回首，那人却在灯火阑珊之处

P.S: 我的华文老师说我的HSK（汉语水平）可以直接报考第六级了！哇哈哈！

Experiment + Sat Fellowship

2011-11-26T20:34:00.001+08:00

Friday, 25/11

Another little white mouse being sacrificed. Its legs were being removed, skin being peeled off and muscles being scratched off. The head and the base of the femur is then cut off and chemical flushed through it like flowing through a pipe for our mouse metahphase experiment. The experiments included a lots of steps which took 3 hours and forced us to tie our stomach.

Once we were released from the lab's jail, the first thing come to us is nothing but FOOD. Hence, we decided to go for a Japenese Buffet at Cun Xi Lu. It's 62RMB per person and we were all cheered by the meats displayed over there, not to forget my favourite San Cheng Rou!!! If you were there to see the amount of dishes we took, we probably will get shocked. 4 people ate in more than 100 dishes, and of course, that's is still not our best record. Throughout the night, I realized that, BBQ-ing is actually more fun than eating and I finally changed my definition of cooked (when it turned black approaching charcoal) to a healthier (not too cooked) base. Without needing the aid of the weighing scale, it's more than obvious that I have gained more weight and I probably have to announce my slimming down project as failure. =(

This are only part of the dishes we took

Saturday 26/11

This is already our 3rd gathering and it was so blessed here to have our new Taiwanese friends joining us. We had a very relax and fun event---U Act, I Guess. The rules are, plug in earphone and act out whatever the lyrics sings and your team mate have to guess what song is that. It's really not easy when it comes to english songs, moreover, the alien songs. So loser will be in-charge of next week events and winner will be in-charge of the following week's event which made no big difference actually.

Even I couldn't believe that I volunteer to become the worship leader. Well, if you know the Envira before, she was the one who always act as a human display on stage, making perfect lip sing in people's eyes (well, i did sang!). Now, volunteer? Worship leader? I dunno why but just feel that they need help and I still don't deny my singing dumbness. Yet, when you are doing something that you enjoy, nothing else matter. It's to worship the Lord after all. Fellowship is indeed the happiest moment over here, sit back and relax, chit-chat, and most importantly to continue to grow in christ (which is what we are about to move into after all enjoying events).

Ice breaking game: Guess who am I?

Another great news, we will have one more taiwanese guy joining in our fellowship. Hallelujah!

Smooth Week

2011-11-20T21:00:00.001+08:00

Within aquick blink, another awesome week just ended. I remembered I stopped somewhere atthe Pre-Freshes party. So yea, let’s continue with the Freshes Party that was heldon last Sunday, 13 November by 2^nd year seniors to welcome the 2011 batch.

If you hadseen my current Facebook profile photo, don’t be fooled by my very ladyappearance and pose because the ugly truth is, I am not. I remember how myfriends laughed at me when I was wearing the 丝袜 with all sortof weird and not lady actions that I am not going to describe in details. Buthey, that’s my very first time to wear丝袜! Besides, I purposely went Zhen Wen’splace earlier to make up since I have to go on stage but after 1hour of makingup, I still look the same. Most probably I was applying and removing at thesame time with my first time make up skill. Still, original is always the best.

Solomon, Joanna, Andy, Jaznie, ME, Tony and Mrs Freshes (Zhen Wen)

Although Iwasn’t being awarded as Mrs Freshes (which is not what I’m looking forward either),I was unusually calm and steady while answering, as thought I don't have stage fright at all. Thank God for giving me courageous.

Our Second Fellowship gathering =)

Regardingour fellowship, we just had our second fellowship and things seem to be gettingmore organized. Hallelujah! In conjunction with our movie day, we watchedLETTERS TO GOD. It’s a very inspiring movie picturing out the life of a youngboy who is suffering from cancer but having the unshakable faith that is worth to beinculcated in our life. It also teaches us, in everything pray to God. He makes the weak strong.

Dico's Day.
Buy 1 FREE 1 offer~

First home cooked dishes prepared by me...
just simple dishes =P

Duringtoday’s Sunday service at Chengdu International Church, I heard 3 peoplespeaking mandarin at the back which made me wonder why local people came toInternational church. After the service, we had a frank talk and found out thatthey are actually Taiwanese who happen to be our seniors from Chinese medium. Never did we realize that we are actually living in the same area and walking in the same campus. Treasuring the opportunity, we invited them to join in our chinese fellowship. Hopefully they can make it.

Wow, God is reallymaking all these working. Hallelujah!

God's Leading

2011-11-12T23:30:00.000+08:00

Regardless of the starting point, whether we are born in Christian family or converted later, there is always a turning point in a Christian's life. There are times we distanced ourselves from God but God has His very special way of bringing us back to Him. Some were being influenced by great awesome friends (that's what happened to me), some were being touched by the lyrics of the songs which brought them to their knees, some were being moved by how great our God is and etc. I can see that, the arrangement of the Chinese Christians friends here is surely not coincident but with a purpose that is yet to be discovered. Amen?

Acceptance of God and understand God are independent subjects. One can say I believe the existence of God but do not understand a little about God or I understand a lot but I do not believe in God. It's a actually a long process of learning and gaining throughout the life to make both intercept together. This is why, a fellowship is needed to build up the members' spiritual life. Also the reason why we are forming a small fellowship group here singing praises to the Lord and having a small program.

After our first small fellowship, I went to the local church youth fellowship in hope to get to know to the locals and have a look at how they carry out their youth fellowship. To my surprise, instead of the fellowship that I'm looking forward, it's a big night service but led by youth. The worship moment was really awesome with nice and meaningful songs and every single words spoke by the worship leader touched me and I smiled in joy, feeling happy for the group of people here who are Christians and some actively involved in church activities.

For the moment, I wouldn't go to the local church night youth service as my exam is drawing near and I still have to cope up my studies. =)

Bless be with people in China..

11.11.11 - 光棍节

2011-11-11T09:52:00.000+08:00

Just the day before 11.11.11, i get to know the meaning of 光棍节 which falls on 11 November every year. It's a special celebration for singles and the focus is on girls. According to one of the friend who study in the local university of China, they have this custom that girls will paste their phone numbers and write their wishes on a tree and guys who are interested will usually get numbers from there. On this day, guys gotta treat girls meals too, which is not done by the guys who went out with us!

Instead of celebrating it, we looked more like going out with a specific purpose--shop for freshes party stuff. Later, we split into two group. Joanna bring Zhen Wen to choose her dress whereas I bring the guys to choose their matching stuff for their plain white shirt (enjoy this...love converting them into korean trend). They ended up buying blazers. I have great satisfaction for being so helpful to them by applying out the skill of bargain price I learned from Jaznie ah nian! haha XD

After shopping, we gathered at one western restaurant to have our dinner. I brought another 3 guys travel all the long distance to buy the peral milk tea from CoCo. The funniest part was that Solomon thought CoCo as chocolate and ordered it but who knows, it's plain milk tea. The dishes in that restaurant doesn't really taste normal and mine was too spicy that I have to cry while eating. No second time for me.

Envira, Eugene, Zhen Wen, Evelyn, Joanna, Solomon, Tony and Andy
(gosh...i look like I'm growing fatter! losy photographer! sigh~!)

CoCo drinks~

Enjoying dinner

Back to things happened in this week, the highlight will be Anatomy class where we have to dissect the internal organs of the cadavers. We broke all the rib bones according to the medialscapular line and turn over the upper layer of the rib cage. Then, cut off all the blood vessels and bronchus attached to the lungs and removed it out. The texture of the lungs are quite smooth but black. Obviously, he was a bad smoker. The lungs of the cadaver from my friend's group appeared like a cheese with super strong bad smell and our lecturer told us that, that is a cheese-like cancer. That really makes you feel like vomiting.

Pre-Freshes Phobia

One more news, which is a good news and a bad news for me at the same time. After the first round of Mr Freshes and Mrs Freshes selection (self introduction + one spontaneous question to answer in front of the 105 classmates and more than 10 seniors) which does not judge but appearances but speaking, I am being selected to proceed into the final round with 4 other girls and 5 boys. So, that was the happy part which followed tightly by the scary part. The next round will require us to have my impromptu answering session on stage. This is killing Envira because Envira has stage fright. I was trembling there even for the simple introduction in the class, what more to say in front of 105 students from my batch + 100 from batch 2010 + approximately 100+ seniors and 3 higher officer! Gosh! I might feel like there's a sudden energy drained out and fall to the ground with my jelly legs. I planned to withdraw myself but they said make chinese proud and all my friends insisted me to stay. I was like what the...so I'll be sacrificed to become the entertainment of the night? Well, English is not my primary language and it's hard for me to respond in a faster way. Besides, there will be people who originate from US, British, Australia, Canada, Latin and etc who are well versed in English, and pressuring me at the same time. NOOOOOOooooo~ I have not yet overcome stage fright.T.T

God, give me COURAGEOUS

A quick review

2011-11-07T04:09:00.000+08:00

Lilian had been asking me to update my blog. It's not because I don't want to update my blog nor I have nothing to update but the primary reason was the firewall set by China that blocked Facebook, Blog, Youtube and so on. It's more than obvious that there is no way for me to enter the blogger page. But recently, I just bought the VPN under Netherlands Server (it sounds cool). That's why Envira comes alive again.

Here's a quick review of what happened over here...

We had a dinner at here under the MATRADE's invitation and we were served with mouth-watering dishes.
It's indeed a great feel to see Malaysian around.

We had another dinner with our International Trading Minister, Malaysia Association of SiChuan, MATRADE and all the other Malaysian business people @ Shang-rila Hotel.
It was a Malaysian buffet with all the rendang I miss, laksa(too spicy for me) and my favourite dessert corner! The Chef himself is a Malaysian too.

-Photo with seniors-
Coyin, Me, Jaznie, Joanna
(They are super helpful. Really need to thank them)

This is a shop inside the Wang Jiang Park.
Wang Jiang Park is a nature approach place surrounded my green plants. All the buildings there are based on the old china building structure which gives a sense of entering the village of the ancient dynasty. The fresh air over there naturally lifts both ends of the lips up and closes the eyes to embrace the nature.

-A random capture-
Who can resist the beauty of the nature.
Praise be with the creator of the nature.

(1) Being nice to the mouse

(2) Inject in Chicken Red Blood cell (the mouse bite me!!)

(3) Disjoint Cervical vertebrae (Solomon volunteer & Zhen Wen is the murderer assistant)

(4) Dissect the mouse's stomach to withdraw the blood (Joanna's part)

My classmate- Batch 2011
Students of West China School of Medicine
SiChuan University

With our lab coat on

My friends were enjoying the sunshine which is a rare phenomena in Autumn

We also started our Guitar Gang Gathering.
We have Andy, our super talented music teacher to correct our mistakes (Didnt have his photo attached here). The first day of our gathering was quite fun. Besides, practicing strumming pattern, we also sings together. It's very rare to find me singing along. After that, we ordered delivery because "I" was lazy to go out (so everyone said listen to envira). The delivery food was really nice...But they gave us the soup in a cup with straw...euu dont you think that it's so wrong?

I went to try out the newly renovated local China church today. The church looks really nice.

But I still cant get use to the chinese church over here. It's quite different from my own church.

Somehow, I miss back my own church including the one in KL.

Doing Good

2011-10-03T23:37:00.003+08:00

EnteringOctober, green leaves started to turn yellowish, people in the street started to layer themselves with jackets. I still find this weather bearable. Sometimeseven feel hot especially with the sun hanging up high in the sky.

Life duringschool time is pretty normal. Having class early in the morning then lunch,followed by going back home and sleep. But the previous week was really anamazing week whereby we were given the chance to dissect cadavers to have alife observation on the blood circulation structure located at the lower limbduring our anatomy practical class. Other than the irritating formalin smell,the dissection was fun. It requires skill while dissecting. You have to measurethe exact depth when you use the scalpers in order not to cut off the veins orarteries located between the fascia layer and the deep fascia layer (inside thefats layer). It’s quite unlucky for us to get a bigger sized cadaver with morefats and hence, it’s harder to find all the veins like Great Saphenous Vein.Anyway, we do get to see it around from the other groups. After we came outfrom anatomy lab, we all smell like the cadavers. One thing for sure, cadaversand actual human are so much more different from the hardness of the skin tothe life involving matter.

As for cellbiology, we went to the other campus to have our cell biology class. After anhour lecturer, we were finally given the chance to touch the microscope. Firstwe tried out with cheek cells, onion cell and frog’s muscle. The first two wasnothing new as we had done those similar experiments during secondary schooltime. For the muscle cell, it looks nothing special than I had expected but theone Joanna did (she took the part with veins) was quite interesting. We alsotook the spare time to look around at the other cells.

Frog's muscle and veins

Parasites' eggs

Actually weare having one week holiday now due to China independent day. Instead oftravelling around, I spent more time shopping. If you know me, you probablyknow that I don’t shop but just accompany my friends. When “just accompanying”appears, I become part of the participant in shopping. I can sense that Envirais slowly turning into a shopaholic. Things over here, especially cloths aresuper cheap (if you don’t enter those branded shops). Lucky for us to havesenior, Jaznie who knows how to bargain the price well. If not, we surely gotcheated by them. Still, I prefer the Envira who always stays indoor. I will trynot letting myself go out after this week. For Carrefour, I had been to therefor the third time within a week. We are getting better and better by nottaking the bus but walk all the way from there to and from our apartment. Eachjourney roughly took about 30minutes, depending on our speed. Walking, we juststarted to get use to it.

As forchurch, I haven’t manage to find one but it’s a good news to know that peoplearound me, especially the Chinese classmates in my class are all Christians.Hopefully we will be able to find one soon.

Classmates

Survival

2011-10-01T16:06:00.000+08:00

(This is the post I'm supposed to post days ago...)

It’salready the fifth day ever since my arrival at Chengdu, Sichuan, China. The weatherover here is currently 18 degree and is expected to drop as winter approaches. Thenice temperature of autumn make me fell in love with Chengdu. It was as if youare walking in a town built with air-conditional.

Classes hadactually started this week but we are still busy doing our documentation stuff.Luckily we managed to sign contract for our apartment yesterday. At least wecan settle down and don’t have to stay in the temporary hotel or carrying ourstuff here and there like some homeless people.

Sichuan Universityis indeed a big university. I remember I got lost once without knowing that thetaxi driver dropped me at the opposite campus. I even called my senior for thedirection. At the end, I have to refer to the map and get my way back. What an embarrassment.Most of the time, we just have to travel from one block to another block. Thisis what you call a big campus which has the so-called mamak stall (where we hadour ice-cream regardless the cold windy weather), football field, stadium,canteen (nice and cheap food!) and so on. The building structure over there isbased on the ancient china building design which I find it very attractive.

Main Gate

Library

Study Block in 2nd year

Lotus Garden

Althoughtoday is the first day of our anatomy (lecture) class, I was forced to skip thelesson and go to hospital to do my health check up. I couldn’t stop laughingwhen I mention about the health check up. Originally, I thought I am the onewho has to redo my health check up but who knows, my roommate Joanna become thepity one who has to redo despite of her very DETAIL health report. Well, how detailit is? I am not going to answer that before she chokes me.

Talkingabout today’s anatomy practical class that I manage to join in later, you willnever believe that we were actually given life cadaver to observe on the veryfirst lesson. It’s a little bit disguising and smelly with the chemical smellbut you get to see the real human structures like joints and bones! The cadavers was only left with upper bodyand the intestines inside can be seen from the bottom. From what I heard frommy senior, we will have our chance to dissect on cadavers later. Awesome anatomy class!

The commandof English over here is definitely not very good. They tend to have theirstrong Manglish ascent. I do have to admit that, sometimes it’s harder tounderstand. Other than anatomy class, all the classes in first semester seem abit boring. I have to attend the Chinese class which teaches primary schoolstandard Chinese, Chinese Medical which also focuses on basic writing andreading and Math that keeps on repeating the same point from the first dayalthough the lecturer is funny. Anyway, it will always be advantages for Chinesesince we had already know the basic of it.

Prawn Night & Gathering

2011-09-12T11:30:00.001+08:00

5hours journey from Kuching to Sibu is no longer something new to me. As usual, I never fail to sleep in the car as the moving car is like a baby cradle swing. How can I not sleep? That's when i admire my parents who can stay awake throughout that long journey. Besides sleeping, this time I added in a new entertainment--watching drama in the car!

Prawn night was held to celebrate grandma's birthday, which is also the reason why we went back to Sibu. I call it prawn night for a reason. It's because most of the dishes served there (80%) contained prawn. Well, I'm not allergy to prawn but I am banned from eating seafood at the mo due to my skin infection. I still have my funny uncle tasting and checking if the food were seafood free for me. Great, left with the 20% for me to eat at the end. No yummy delicious prawn!

When I stood up, i felt a little satisfaction, I was towering over the majority people present. That's when I have to keep explaining to my relatives that I'm not that tall, it's because of the 3.5inch heels effect. I could have be the fattest among cousins since I am living such an unhealthy life, distancing myself from sports.

Back to my grandma's house, a very random scene was being caught. That was a scene with Envira alone with 5 primary school kids competing Fruits Ninja (iPad game). As a young teen of age 17 currently, I have no mercy on them and grabbed away the victory crown and made out evil laugh. Although we might enjoy our time playing happily now, I doubt if they can remember me the next time I went back.

my sis, Grace with two cousins

Nice yummy crunchy milk biscuit from Sibu! Love it!

Night time,I joined my youth fellowship's early mid autumn gathering. Our plan to uselantern to decorate the tree and had a walk around a particular area withlantern in our hands were ruined by the sudden rain. So, we left with no otherchoice but to stay indoor. Part of the enjoyment was eating durian,making weird new version lantern (rambutan skin with wax and candle inside) andletting the lantern burns. Of course, when
there’s a mahjong set, we four(Jocelyn, Max, Allen) never fail to sit together and play.

Happymooncake festival.

Baked Cheese Cake

2011-09-08T20:12:00.000+08:00

In the robot baking machine. I remember my mom said, "she never seen anyone who sits beside the oven to wait for the cake finish baking". XD

Out from oven

Look nice isn't it? =)
Cheese on top, oreo biscuit as base

I didn't follow exactly what the recipe book wrote. Well, as you can see, it is quite tempting and appetizing. I remember I was cheering at that moment. But the cheering moment quickly ended when I placed my finger on the cake and raised my hand, the base and the cheese were SEPARATED. Gosh! Besides, the cheese isn't spongy enough. probably because I didn't use corn flour. I should try it out some other day (years later XD). Anyway, it's still editable.

Early Farewell

2011-09-07T00:54:00.000+08:00

When the microphone was passed to me to present my farewell speech, I really went blank. Perhaps I haven't really move into the leaving mood and the matter of farewell hasn't cross my mind. Or, perhaps, time had created a small gap between the old youth members and me, restricting me to behave naturally.

Anyway, I really thank you all (Power Youth Members) for organizing this farewell dinner at Tropical Fish Cafe for me n Sim Yi. The super big burger of a basketball player's palm size big (RM15) is indeed the memorable part of that place. Although I shared with my friend, Jocelyn, we still barely finish it. I'm also here to say, forgive me for not participate actively, nor did I accomplished all your final wish--hear me singing. Knowing that people are waiting for me to sing alone, it just made me felt more awkward to sing publicly. I don't usually sing K. Mahjong has quickly become the alternative entertainment option. I don't deny the temptation of the Mahjong set within my vision zone and that's how I ended up having a Mahjong gang there. Although we didn't chat much, but spending time together alone is already great. Hopefully the next time I meet you all, I can share with you all my new experiences at the other side of the world. Once again, thank you all for your concern and prayer.

The word leaving and going overseas might sound cool. While enjoying the coolness of the "going overseas" tag, I also have to be ready to accept the behind scene risk of the coolness. People often quote, "no pain, no gain".

With all the best wishes

Lifeless life

2011-09-01T16:56:00.001+08:00

Holiday yes holiday. I had enjoyed more than one month holiday after graduated from college. What I have been busying all these days is none other than sticking to my laptop to enjoy my Korean drama hours from day to night. I also had two part time jobs (photography and notice board decorating) and hang out with friends (usually eating but now MAHJONG! it's damn fun when you play with points). I have stopped exercising again after the went-off-without-paying case at stapok badminton court, I felt a bit embarrass to return there. Nor did I cycle without my awesome big bike gang to accompany me around. Such an unhealthy life!

1.City Hunter

Other than the ending that doesnt seem to be like an ending, the whole drama is super awesome especially having Lee Min Ho there as the female eyes attraction. Awww~ Besides, the song "So Goodbye, Dont Cry, Smile" is really really nice!
Rating: 9 / 10

2.新妓生传

The longest korean drama I ever watched. 52episodes man! The story is quite interesting at the beginning but a bit boring after the main actor and actress got married. The main actor (成勋) doesnt look bad either and he's graduated from sport filed. No wonder he can play all kinds of sports in the drama.
Rating : 7 / 10

3. MIDAS

The poster made it seemed like an action drama (a little) but the drama about the temptation of money that changed one's heart evil. They compete against each other by intelligent and some dirty tricks of course. It's this drama that I started to become the little fans of Lee Min Jung. Ah..she's pretty!
Rating: 8 / 10

4. If in love...Like them

This is a really short drama consist of 4episodes only. It's kind of old. A touching drama and I like the ending a lot especially the song sang by Lee Hyo Ri -- Scolded. She really can sing well. As for Lee Dong Gun, I don't like his messy hair in this drama.
Rating: 7 /10

5. ATHENA

Another action movie which is similar to IRIS. I personally think that IRIS is better than this movie from the way they plot the whole story. As for this, it pictures out the outstanding female assassin + spy. I sometimes wonder if I can become that unbeatable heroine. XD
Rating: 7 /10

6. Family Outing Season 2

This show really makes me look just like a maniac especially when I put on my headphone and laughed wildly in front of the screen. Of course, the main reason I watch this is because of Yoona and TaeCyeon!I have no idea why the rating for season 2 goes down but I really think that it's an awesome hillarious and super entertaining show. Full stars!
Rating 10 / 10

Hyori Lee - Scolded

2011-08-29T13:59:00.001+08:00

Hah...I nearly can celebrate my one month off from blog but here I am. Just a song to share..I find it nice...=)

Scolded

You must always remember to shave...

Don't wear your shirts when wrinkled

And remember--only one cup of coffee per day...

Please begin to smoke less

And avoid spicy and salty foods

Now you, as well, need to start practicing being alone

CHORUS:

Just cus I'm gone, don't make drinking a habit

I want you to be the one to take care of yourself

Don't be the pushover that you are

And start speaking up for yourself

Just cus I'm gone, don't be sick and be well

Always take care of your meals and what you eat

Even if it may be annoying and you don't feel like doing it all...

I'm asking you this as a favor.

Don't go to Apgu often

All those pretty girls there make me nervous/jealous

If a girl acts sweet and nice to you

It's all fake and a way to get to you

Don't fall too fast over heels

Cus I'll still be watching you~

CHORUS:

Just cus I'm gone dont make drinking a habit

I want you to be the one to take care of yourself

Don't be the pushover that you are

And start speaking up for yourself

Just cus I'm gone, don't be sick and be well

Always take care of your meals and what you eat

Even if it may be annoying and you don't feel like doing it all...

I'm asking you this as a favor.

I worry most about you who'll be left behind when I go

Up until now, I've only been nagging

Only remember me when I was at my worst

And you must practice erasing me from your mind

I'll tell you one more time

But don't be sick and be well

Always take care of your meals and what you eat

Even if it may be annoying and you don't feel like doing it all...

I'm asking you this as a favor.

Because I leave after only nagging to you...

I'm sorry

credits to soompi :thumbsup:

Finally blog

2011-08-04T18:48:00.000+08:00

It's at this stage that you will always look back and think, time flies. Indeed, 5 months of KL life had ended and now I'm couching inside house, spending time gaming, drama-ing, chatting and etc which perfectly picture out a lifeless life.

I really enjoyed my past 5 months in KL and so many things happen that I probably need three (well, 3 just sounds nice) full pages to complete my story-telling. So, let's just have a brief talk over here.

Of course, it had been a great arrangement that God brought me to KL and studied in President College which is a very small and unknown college but it doesn't matter. Besides, I'm more special that the other students who were away from home and stayed in hostel because I'm lucky enough to stay with my friend's family. To have my best friend as my roommate. The thought of becoming roommate for the rest of the 6 years really sounded scary to us at first but when the opportunity was gone, it arises a sense of missing. Missing the one to shout aloud, missing the one to cry with, missing the one to update your most recent news, missing the one who accompany throughout the lonely nights, missing the one... If I happen to become emotional one day, that will be your fault XD

Not to forget my college friends, and the wonderful moments we cherished together like jamming, hangout, shopping, cycling, prom night, camping (hate to admit that it's the source of my scary skin infection) and so on, especially the 4 stars. I will never forget the moment four of us attacked by love dilemma, screamed out in disbelief with the truth we confessed and did some crazy post-symptoms. Haha... awesome funny friends that made me cried in airport sending you people away to India. Not to forget the J1+J2+J3 mixed gang. It's a bit sad that we only get closer when we all are about to leave but do keep in touch. The next time I see you people again, I will make some nicey cheesy yummy cake. Pinky swear~

Part of the thing to be happy with was the great opportunity that I was given to bring some of my friends to church. The credit should goes to Elaine who started inviting the crowd to accompany her to church. =) I also enjoyed my time with all the brothers and sisters in church, especially the youth gang. Part of our Sunday routine was Sunday service, Badminton, Lawrence's house then hangout at night stall chit-chatting. It was really a nice experience to hangout at night stall which i had never experienced it with friends in Kuching. We may try it out. haha.

So yea that's it. The closing of the chapter of College life. Then, after one months of lifeless life, I'll have to move into a new chapter of my life-the university life. I know it's going to be tough, I know it's going to be brain-cracking sometimes, I know it's going to make me feel hopeless but I can't wait to explore it at the same time. So, with my best slogan ever, come what may.

Hibernate

2011-07-03T16:40:00.001+08:00

Expecting hibernate to bring away pains

Reluctant to wake up to face the day

Because the moment I become conscious

Yesterday's memories will hunt me down

My eyes are still holding back the tears

My heart being torn and still aching

My energy being greatly drained away

A smile is harder to force out that I imagined

Every sad songs I played from my playlist

Were like singing out the hidden voice within

Broke me down and brought me to my knees

Resulting in the intractable emotions

I become exceptionally abnormal

Quiet, expressionless and day dreaming

Dying hair with bright brown in the midnight

And having ear phone plugged-in to drunk me

I am a good runner from troubles

But little did I know

Either hibernation or aestivation

There is a time of waking up

But just for the moment

I wish everything remains the same

Pretending that I wasn't thinking of anything

Assuming that hibernation can last through all seasons

Will be having my "off computer week"

Will be back again after my sem2 exam

Time flies... :)

:)

2011-07-01T18:29:00.000+08:00

The smile of my face is the outcome of the week i had been through.

Everything that happened around had been so wonderful and memorable.

There's no reason for me to hide my smile.

Because my days SHINE~

左上右下

2011-06-28T21:51:00.005+08:00

杰阁耸立于城市

撒影遮盖了阳光

思慕往日的光芒

光照后皆物晶莹

隐约不露的思念

含蓄地躲避阳光

似乎是场捉谜藏

一方追逐一方躲

彼此缓慢了步伐

回首便发现对方

前所未有的感觉

由眼神相交浮现

否认并不是答案

逃避并不能寻见

唯回头拥有珍惜

才能撇下心中石

独木桥

2011-06-24T18:41:00.002+08:00

陷入或许很容易
放下或许不简单
你我不处于一线

无奈得擦肩而过

你离开我的视线
我心始终放不下
纵然有酒来灌醉
那痛始终很难忘

这是一条独木桥
命中注定一人行
没有你陪我度过
我仍然能够到岸

给我多一点时间
我相信我能熬过
至少再见你那天
我还是好好活着

Specially dedicated to a friend

Russell's return ; Michelle's presence

2011-06-18T23:27:00.000+08:00

Had lunch with Fui Gang at Wong Kok. Haha...that was really a nice gathering. =)

Of course, not to forget to take photo with my lao gong who came back from Australia.
He become more handsome but still as cute as last time...my lao gong wad...

Oh my handsome! Damn! He was releasing electrics through his eyes and I was greatly being shocked.
How I wish we will get to know each other some how.

We then walked around 1Utama with Jenny. We just found out that we are not shopping type as we got tired after shopped for a while. Gonna admit that, things over here are really costly =S

Also, we meet up Michelle and they had their high tea at Sushi shop.
I still remember Ying got her pants wet after she stood up and realized that she was sitting on a pool of water that leaked out from her bottle. She said, :" no wonder I felt my butts are cold, thought it was because of the chair"

Then we came to this place that I was so reluctant to enter but because of Ying got her pants wet and it's not convenience for her to shop around anymore. This normal karaoke with few meals coasted me RM36.50. Hell. = =
I would never enter there if not because of...

Herbal Life Facial Treatment

2011-06-18T02:06:00.000+08:00

We started off or Herbal Life Promotion Package with washing foot in the sea salt water for roughly 3minutes. Followed by, breathing in the sweet aroma that shut down the 18 hours operating brain for a while. I was later brought into a small room.

Laying comfortably on the bed with the beauty centre's suit on, a pair of hands started dancing like a fish according to my face structure line. So relishing. Constantly, that pair of hands will pressed on my head in different methods to apply in the exact pressure to relax my head muscles. Her hands also moved down to my shoulder and messaged from my shoulder up to my neck.

After face steaming, it came to the most torture part of the day. They used some kits to squeeze out the black head, blemish and any other dirty stuff. That was really painful. When I thought the suffering session is about to end, she continued with another further removing dirt session. This time, I felt like needle poking into my face and the pain is predictably to be more painful.

Right after that, we moved into mask doing session. After putting on the mask and leaving me to rest for a while, she came in again to massage my arms and hands. Comfortable. With a ginger tea, my facial treatment session has ended.

Fish spa was our last stop- remove dead skin and aid in blood circulation. We (ying, elaine and me) pulled up our long pants and dipped our legs into the pond. Right after that, those fishes were attracted to our foot like hungry fishes that have been starving all these while. It brought up some itchy and uncomfortable feel at first but as time past, it's just like small unnoticeable things stinging my foot. But among all of us, Ying appear to be the one who afraid of the tiny little fishes. She even shouted in fear until the manager came over.

Before we left, they still offered a brief consultant moment on our skin problem and the solution to counter it. Of course, it was their business hour at the same time and I was persuaded to buy their serum toner. I'm considering to return to buy their aloe vera face gel.

Originally, I thought of going to church with a clean and refreshing face after all those beauty treatment. Instead, all I heard was people saying, "you seemed like lack of sleep these days". Then i would have to start defensing for myself, "Nah, that's not PIMPLES. That's the red mark after the facial therapy".

Still, that was an awesome experience. it will be super enjoyable without the pain suffering part.

College Model

2011-06-16T23:21:00.002+08:00

Under the scorching hot sun in the afternoon, few of us are holding books, mac book, and iPad to pose to the camera's focus lens. We were lying down on the grass, sitting under the tree, having group study in a wide green field and jumping up high to touch the sky, which were all sort of actions that are more toward western photo style.

There's one part which required me to look eyes to eyes with a handsome French. OMG! I felt so shy all at the sudden though I had been spying on that small group of handsome French who come to our college to do IT internship. When we were lying on the grass, there is another French lied beside me and we were eventually touching. My cheeks got a little bit hot. Yet, i didn't get to be that close with the one that I actually leer on.

Anyway, it was really good experience. It was as if some professional photography session whereby we were requested to pose like this and that. It's a pleasure for being chosen. It secretly means that they think I am pretty and photogenic (OMG...persan again).

My face is going to appear in my college new website page! XD

Liar Liar Hat On Fire

2011-06-15T00:26:00.009+08:00

One day before I was inspired and decided to become hardworking. Yet today, I'm slacking again. I ended up facing laptop for the whole day to do some presentation research. But most of the time, I was checking out on match.com and creating baidu social network account to find some handsome perfect match. What's wrong with me? Love desperate again?

Honestly, I don't believe much in the aid of network matching. I just signed up all for fun. I intend to see how many people wink to me. (Account created for 3days...received a total of 11 winks out of 36 who viewed me...AWESOME! ) I'm so happy. Indeed, there are a lot handsome in match.com and match.com will be perfect place to find partner if no charges is need. Just by filling up all the criteria of the ideal guy makes me realize how choosy i am. In fact, criteria doesn't really exist in real life. At the end of the day, you might find yourself attracted to someone not fulfilling your criteria but there's chemical reaction occurring between you two. Love is blind, it's true.

But love is never meant to be a game. It's pointless to get a fake human to replace the empty space beside, since that sense of emptiness only last for short while. A relationship should not even begin in the first place, without the presence of love because it will end up hurting both parties.

Above all, denying the truth is the most suffering part. For you know the truth within but you are resisting or opposing the flow of feel. So i would say, follow your feel. Be frank with love.

Living in denial,

Hiding away feelings.

Thank you for the inspiration

2011-06-13T00:46:00.001+08:00

In this coming September, it will be my life changing time to proceed into another stage and transform from a foundation in science holder to a medical degree student. However, the word Medicine doesn't scare me at all for I always have this high self-confident in myself. Yet, high self-confident and capability are exactly of two different thing and my self assurance only make me sink lower and lower.

I have to thank Nina (http://ninammazlan.wordpress.com/) for inspiring me so much. She is currently having her first year degree in SiChuan Medical University and appear to be the top student over there. The most amazing thing is, she is a triple degree holder for taking MBBS and Traditional Chinese Medicine(TCM) at the same time. Her knowledge toward medicine has far overtook the basic knowledge needed to be covered in first degree year. I strongly believe that it's because of her own effort in reading all those thick doctor's journal that make her a wiser and knowledgeable person.

[Checkout also on Dr Edwin Leap's blog : (http://edwinleap.com/blog/?p=713) I really like this post!]

I'm nothing compare to her. I'm a lazy bum who only dream of becoming a doctor in order to complete my dream as a psychiatrist. If I continue behave in this way, I might either flunk my exam or become the worst doctor ever. It's a simple concept of what is planted will be reaped in the end of the day. Like a farmer who plants cucumber can never expect for the red tomato. What is a doctor for if not to put in all he/she could to save patients' life?

As I can see, and finally agree that the journey to become a doctor isn't as easy as imagined. White coat with a stereoscope and being called as "doctor" might sounded awesome but you will never understand the story behind them. Each doctors has a different story and one day, i'm going to use my story to inspire the others. It's going to be a journey full of blocking stones, a journey of faith, experiencing God's wonder and most importantly, to become a living testimony of all.

Choices are many but decision aren't easy to be made.

SG Trip 2011

2011-06-06T16:57:00.001+08:00

I wasn't really looking forward to this trip at first. Even thought of dumping the air ticket that I had booked earlier. Anyway, I still boarded the aeroplane and landed in Singapore. It sounded more like my dad convincing me to go at that moment.

~Day 1~

My very first overseas trip with friends
Lilian + Me + Elaine

After morning class, we went straight to airport. By the time we landed at Singapore, it was already around 6pm. After settling our luggages, we went for dinner at the food court and also a brief walk at Khatib area.

~Day 2~

Orchard

Despite of the nice name Singapore Mega Sales, things over here are still very expensive for Malaysian. It's more or less like the normal pricing in Malaysia after you times 2.5.

Somerset

I believe, there's no one as stupid or as us to take MRT to go from Orchard to Somerset where both places can reach by foot.

Human out-number cars

Bugis is the most affordable place to shop for brandless stuff. The cheapest you can get here is around SGD9.90 which is approximately RM25. You also gonna accept the fact that the quality isn't as good as those you found in shopping complex.

Marina Bay

This high class restaurant was expected to be a western restaurant with super costly menu.
To our surprise, it's a chinese restaurant and it actually have one cup of tea for SGD2.
We nearly get to enter but due to time limitation, Lilian was being excused this time for losing her bet.

If you have time, do come over Marina Bay Gallery to have a view of the development plan of Singapore.
There are also building descriptions available and the building will lights up once you touch over the name..

Harbor Front @ Vivo City
Our gathering spot where Clement and Val came to meet up with us. The soreness of our leg after 10 hours shopping forced us to take a rest at the rooftop of Vivo City.

Ment, Mark, Lian, Me, Val, Elaine
classmate reunion at SG
We had mark who rushed here by cab just to meet us for 5minutes. Pity him la..

Sentosa
We planned to watch the machine bird performance at first but the moment we reached there, the show had ended. So we started our photography session.

Didn't go in Universal Studio as it cost SGD70.
Didn't feel like worth it.

At the end of the day, every steps is like moving 8kg weight hanged on foot. At times I felt like crushing down but there's a spirit inside me forcing me to keep moving on. I never had been this tired after going out for one day. I never had this kind of foot soreness which somehow affected me walking.

~Day3~

Yun Tun Mee
but I prefer the Mee Pok Dry I ate on the first Day

The milk tea taste normal...
Should have try the KOI's milk tea instead!

The afternoon shopping part at Yishun and Ang Mo Kio was quite boring as we had already shopped for approximately 10 hours yesterday and things selling around are about the same. So, we went to East Coast around 5pm to meet up Lilian. I love this place!

Mention about Lilian, I got mad for her sending people aeroplane attitude and even mentioned in her blog that she was playing Wii! Shit la you! .\ /. It doesn't matter what you did but the point is, you broke your promise. If you ever did so again, hehehe...that's unforgettable because this is not the first time already. (OMG...i sounded supper mad but I wasnt really that mad la...)

The next time I go to singapore, we will be camping inside the tent.

And also water skating

Enjoying the wind blow

Cycling in the night around East Coast

~Day 4~

I woke up late because of the cozy weather in the morning and also stayed up late playing wii. Oh my wii sucks! I caused my cousin to lose so many times by failing to smash at the exact timing.
After packing and tidying, my uncle drove us to Changi international airport for lunch. His mini Cooper is indeed cute but it's really inconvenience to enter and come out from the car. XP

After eating Singapore food for these few days,
I came out with a conclusion that,
majority of Singaporean love sweet food.
Even their pork source is sweet. wow

After arriving at KL, i went to putra to shop again. Haha...that's where we call mega sales. And around 8pm, I took a cab back to my friend's condo.

Somehow I feel like, this trip is more interesting than the SG trip I had before. Having the chances to explore more places that I had never been to. I will explore more places the next time I visit there. (:

Linda's Autograph Session 2011

2011-05-28T19:13:00.002+08:00

I couldn't resist my desire to show up at Linda's autograph session by keep bagging Ying Ying to go with me since I never had this experience before. I was jumping and screaming the moment she finally nodded her head.

Linda鍾嘉欣 Autograph Session @ Bukit Bintang

As you can see, by the time we reached there, it's already crowded by her dear fans. It was up to a point where we even thought of using money to rent a viewing place at the balcony connected to the stalls at the side. Anyway, we were being rejected. So, all we could do was running up and down to hunt for an empty place for us to squeeze in. Not to deny that, we have the idea of keep running up and down the escalator.

Her live performance was great!
Like the two songs she sang !!
I'll be waiting for you
I'll follow you

Linda's fans

Autograph session

She even talk to them for like 5seconds. arrr...awesome!

Her serious look...I bet she's tired

But her smile brought out the warmness and sweetness

And i nearly pulled out RM50 to buy her album in order to have that 5 seconds talk with her. Well, i do felt regret after I left. I had never been this crazy before and perhaps, it's just the urge to meet up your favourite actress/singer especially when she/he is just few feets away from you. That drove me momentarily insane!

She happily thank all her fans and hope to have a concert in Malaysia.

It was an amazing experience!

Kuching Gang!!!
Helena, Huan, Long, Me, Ying

Taman Pertanian Malaysia

2011-05-21T20:26:00.006+08:00

My alarm rang for several times, I stretched out my hand to reach my cellphone and pressed END button. I was so lazy to leave my bed this early but at the same time, I was so looking forward to cycle. It had been long that I didn't touch bicycle and you know how impossible it is to cycle in this hustle and bustle KL city. That's why we all are so willing to ditch our Malaysian Studies for nature approach opportunity.

We gathered at Titiwangsa Station and went all the way to Shah Alam, Taman Pertanian Malaysia for the cycling event organised by Godness Youth Fellowship. Sadly, all the bicycles are rented by early birds. So instead of cycling, we went on the bus to have a brief tour around the compound first.

"Over here people"
Yea...our beloved handsome youth leader

Singing + tea break + games
Awesome moments...

President gang...
Glad to have them join us...
Glad to hear good feedback also...

This is not us...
Anyway, we get to cycle before left. That was damn tiring as we have to cycle uphill.
Exhausted!

Beautiful...like the scene in 49Days drama

So, I told myself that I'm going to come back to this place again before I left KL. We will have another special photography day at that point of time.

LET THE NATURE TELL YOU THE BEAUTY OF THE WORLD

The best photograph of the day :)
Credit to Ying's Nikon Coolpix S8100

49 Days

2011-05-19T02:26:00.003+08:00

49 Days- Korean Drama

49 Days is a life saving period

Yet it is also that 49 days

That human's true colours were shown

Imagine all the days they faked in front of you

And all the things that you did was only the sources of their hatred

That's is when even you cried until your eyes bleed

Nothing will change

But you might then realize who is really there for you

Or somebody worth to fall for

By then, you will only hope that

Once you wake up

Your memories during the 49days will stay

Life is such a priceless gift given

Think of those who are striving so hard to exchange a day on Earth

Yet there are people who are searching for a quick end

Be reminded,

Live everyday to the fullest

Nam Gyu Ri & Jung Il Woo

I like both of them!!! Aaaaaa~

It's seriously an awesome drama.

If IRIS is the drama that i'll recommend around,

then i'll tell you that,

49 Days deserve a higher rank than IRIS.

So, watch it!!!

And I cried 3 times for the last episode.

Sad ending yet I still love the whole drama.

Don't Look Back

2011-05-15T00:09:00.000+08:00

Life is just so, past is just like nothing more than unwanted pain and future that remain misery, not until the day you explore it. So, don't look back once you walked pass. Even if you wanted to, make sure you are strong enough to accept the foolish mistakes you made and be able to walk out of regret.

Seeing my friends getting scholarships offered to study local or overseas, and I got nothing but have to burden my parents to worry for the costly expenses needed for my degree years. It's the same feel that I'm having here again. Guilty. Heartbreaking. Yup, it served me right. If only if I wasn't that playful that time. If only if I wasn't that that lazy. If only....

[Too bad, life doesn't have a backspace to erase the past. ]

Think positively, current failure is like a warning letter for future. Reminding me to strive harder at any time instead of becoming a lazy bum. Not even shall I underestimate the foundation course exam that I am taking right now. And my next big target will be overseas loan. Arh...life is tough.

[Life permits changes in future]

The sound here in my heart

2011-05-02T15:12:00.003+08:00

Blog has always been a place for me to share my happiness, divide my sorrow and rant out my dissatisfaction. But recently, I found that there is a gap between me and my blog. There were so many times I viewed my blog without knowing what to tell or post. It is like a communication error occurring between us. And I don't deny the fact that there are some other factors like having parents who are in the trend of technology, checking out facebook and blog which somehow made me feel like I'm being eyed. Well, I don't mean that's really bad and there's something super secretive about me that I'm afraid to be unmasked by my parents but knowing that they might read, it somehow restricted what I'm going to post. No matter how close the relationship between the family is, children will always want to have a space for privacy. It's not like choosing stranger over family but...(I hate nagging especially when I'm super aware of what's wrong and right. (: ) Or perhaps, I should just see all the readers the same, regardless of who you are in real life.

People ought to describe a doctor as somebody who is smart, brilliant, hardworking, responsible, have high sense of awareness, discipline, kind... and all other adjectives that anyone of us can tell. When you see a person drug her life with all the addiction around and tell you that she's going to become a future doctor, you will most probably shake your head in disbelief.

From gaming addiction to music addiction, music addiction to novel addiction and novel addiction to movies and drama addictions. But none of the drugs work effectively on her. Despite of fulfilling herself with whatever addictions that come, she still feel the irreplaceable emptiness. Most of the time, she cocoons herself with blanket, staring at a spot, having her minds floating drunkly.

Her tired face and disheveled hair looked as if she got hurt deeply. But I couldn't remember her heart raced for anyone and she is the well known cold-hearted person. How could she be hurt? No, I'm not her, how could I possibly read her mind. Perhaps she's just too independent, agony and choosy.

There's one day she talked to me, wishing to walk out of these addiction and have a proper life. She is so aware of every single thing she did were meant for nothing but a short-term entertainment that permit the short-term pleasure. Yet, there's just an emptiness inside her heart that she wished to be filled by something. She asked me, does God hates her for becoming such an useless person. I don't know what to answer back.

Get well soon Ra.

Of Pain and Gain

2011-04-17T14:48:00.002+08:00

Each day you must choose:

The pain of discipline or the pain of regret.

Discipline is tough--and something we may try to avoid. But in life, short-term pain is often the only path to long-term gain. In the heat of battle it is too late to prepare. Either you are ready for the challenges of life or you will be haunted by the "what ifs", "if only", and "I should have" that accompany the failure to be prepared. That's the pain of regret.

One source defines regret as "an intelligent and emotional dislike for personal past acts and behaviours". It's painful to look back at our choices through the lens of regret and feel the weight of our failures.

May our choices today not result in regret, but rather be wise and God-honouring.

In your, O Lord, we take delight,

Our every need You can supply;

We long to do what's true and right,

So, Lord, on You we will rely.

Present choices determine future rewards.

(Our Daily Bread, April 16)

Let Photos Tell You Food

2011-04-16T19:20:00.004+08:00

---Monday---

After class, we went to KLCC to have our lunch and also to watch movie- Ghost Must Be Crazy. Similar to the Where Got Ghost movie, it's not scary but funny ghost movie.

2 for RM2.20 @ Kopitiam Express, KLCC food court

This egg tart taste supper nice!!!

As you can see that the pastry (some use butter + egg recipe) has many layers and it's super crispy.

Yee Mee Chicken with egg RM7.50
@ Hotplate, KLCC Foodcourt

The source was too salty.

Dislike =(

---Wednesday---

Egg tart RM1.80 each @ KFC

OMG! You really should try it. I Love it!!! It tastes awesome especially when it's hot.

This egg tart has thinner pastry and majority of it is the custard (very Q).

Chocolate Cheese Cake RM7.60 @ Secret Recipe

The chocolate part is only chocolate cream.

Whereas, the cheese cake part taste not too sweet and just nice

which reminded me the taste of the cheese cake I made before.

But the Yogurt Cheese Cake (Rm 7.60) isn't as nice as this.

Curry Ayam Rice & Mixed Vegetables Rice
RM6.30 each @ Chinese Food Store, Ampang Park

The price is a little bit expensive for that simple meal.

Anyway, both dishes taste nice especially the curry.

If you like Curry with thick santan taste, then you really should try.

It's not that spicy. ;)
(That's why I didn't cry while eating it)

---Thursday---

Yun Tun Mee RM 4.00 (M)
Bao Tang RM3.00
@ Ben Zhen Yun Tun Mee, WangsaMaju

Two thumbs up! High recommended!

It looks like Kolomee but has a different taste as they are using black source instead of adding vinegar. The fried Yun Tun also taste nice. It's really hard to find a place where you can fill your stomach with just RM4.00. Same thing goes to the Bao Tang, It's concentrated with the ingredient. This made the price super reasonable (No...I should say CHEAP!).

---Friday---

Sizzling Chicken Chop + Ice lemon tea RM9.90
@ Garden Cafe, The Mall, PWTC

This promotion set is really worth it.

The portion is more than enough to make you full.

Besides, both the fragrant rice and the tender chicken chop with BBQ source taste exactly nice.

Alright this is not eatable.

I just found it funny. People often look fine with their beauty mask on but we look like people who are currently undergoing some facial therapy due to skin burned. =S

---Saturday---

Completed Moral Studies, proceed into Malaysian Studies. Awww...

Mc Muffin Happy Meal RM8.30
+ Rio- Rafael
+ Rio Child movie ticket

Here come our home cook food...
Chef Lee and Chef Yu...

All these dishes look so much better than last time and also taste better this time!

Hurray!!!

We can open restaurant now. Order pleae. XD

I Love FooD

I love cooking

JPA Interview @ Shah Alam 2011

2011-04-13T22:00:00.008+08:00

Around 10am, i went to meet up my dad who carried all my true copies and certified copies of documents all the way from Kuching to KL. While having lunch (an egg tart only) at KFC, KL Sentral, I quickly used the wifi to do some research on the name of prime minister and had a quick scan. Well, what I heard all these while regard the questions being asked during the interview were really striking away my confidence little by little.

As I set my foot into the INTEC block W, all I saw was parents waiting for their children. I glanced around but I have no idea what or whom was I hoping to see. Friends? Impossible! I really regretted for choosing Shah Alam as my interview venue instead of putting back Kuching. At least I still can meet back my old friends and not this lonely.

After entered the waiting room, the person in charge required us to hand in our true copies documents (in clear folder which are already arranged according to a sequence based on what was requested on the letter) and the photocopy set. Then each candidates were given their number. I then remembered all my friends began their interview by mixing around first. So, I forced myself to break the silence by starting a conversation with the girl behind me.

Not long later, we came to the judgement table. There are 5 of us in the group and 3 malay panel in front. We began with the shake hand ceremony and sat according to the sequence. The 3rd panel stressed us to answer in BM if the question was asked in BM and so goes to BI.

Introduce yourself, your family background, your academic performance and your co-curriculum performance?
Why do you want to become a doctor? Why overseas?
Bagaimanakah anda sebagai remaja memupukkan konsep 1 Malaysia dalam kalangan pelajar kolej atau universiti? Contoh aktiviti?
What are the values that should be instilled in a doctor?
Jika pesakit anda memerlukan anda menolongnya mengeluarkan MC palsu, apakah tindakan kamu sebagai doktor?
If you were sent to rulal area, are you willing to go? Sure no problem for the sarawakian here. Ha.
What makes you think that JPA should award you this scholarship instead of others?

(This is random...normally not as many questions as this.)

Instead of letting us to volunteer ourselves to answer, the panel call one by one. I have no idea why my heart undergo a rapid expansion and contraction according the lup-dup rhyme, as if it's going to pop out at first. I wasn't nervous. See, I don't even have my jaw trembling. And I tried so hard to speak Malay though it doesn't really work. I was like rotating on the same corner for most of the time. When I ended my answering session for question number 2, the panel looked at me and asked, "that's all?" I smiled back, "that's all!" My best answering part of the day should be the last question. I felt exactly relax at that moment and every sentences just flow out smoothly. There's nothing so called group discussion or debate over here and the interview session actually lasted for one hour for each group. I can see that the panel were just trying to make full use of the time by throwing more questions to us. But, they are super nice. =) Still, I understand that it is nearly impossible for me to get the scholarship. 0.03% perhaps? Besides, there is one very outstanding girl in my group who can speak fluently in both languages and was actively involved in co-curriculum. I'm not trying to compare myself with her (yes I'm) but I don't want to build up empty hope. Anyway, I'm really content with my performance today. It's also lucky for us to have a 2:4 ration of BM to BI questions. Thank God!

To those who are about to face it, remember to pray and let God equip you and guide you. Also, don't get yourself nervous with all the questions being asked before your turn. Talk slowly and make sure the massage is delivered clearly (some of my answers were quite blur ><). Don't be too narcissistic but try to be humble. You may also bring in paper and pen but you won't find it useful at all. Besides, people always say Baju Kurung is the best but majority of us over Shah Alam wore office wear (blouse + skirt / blouse + working pants with shoes that cover the toes). I'm not sure if tiding up hair is a must, but everyone did so. There are also one or two who wore very informal but don't follow them.

To my Kuching's frineds:
SHAH ALAM IS EASIER! JEALOUS? XP

Pre-interview Shock

2011-04-12T19:10:00.000+08:00

If I haven't tell you that I'll tremble when I am afraid...I'll tremble (even my jaw)
If I haven't tell you that my mind will become blank when I'm nervous...I'll become blank
If I haven't tell you how lousy my BM is...my BM sucks!

If I haven't tell you that I feel like chicken out...I wanna run away

My confidence is being greatly languished...
which side of me stand a chance to be awarded?

COURAGEOUS

2011-04-10T20:55:00.003+08:00

LOVE begins from family.

A Fireproof Love

2011-04-10T04:52:00.002+08:00

Why do we have to keep loving one person when the other person keep on rejecting our love? It's the hardest thing ever yet our God has never fail to love us despite how deep we hurt Him each time. Neither will he forsake us when we are walking at the valley, surrounded by fear.

I really thank this movie for inspiring me so much about love and determination. Love is not merely love toward the other half, family, friends but it can also be love toward those who you find it hard to love. Somehow, love and determine or persistent have to work together. Like keep on loving even being greatly rejected. I know it's easy to say and hard to do.

When conflict arose, we often see ourselves as the saint who is always right and put all the blames on others. This is when conflict become war and later torn apart. Well, it should not be in that way. Love is of tolerance, of endurance, remember?

First week of APRIL

2011-04-09T22:33:00.002+08:00

Three days examination passed in a snap, and there we are in the after exam mood, enjoying our lovely day shopping. Our main purpose of this hangout is to check out on my friend's Vocal class (she blamed me for causing her so into singing), dancing class (oh flash mob!) and also to shop for my formal attire (more toward office wear) for JPA interview.

Somehow I wonder if JPA interview is a good news. I have to go all the way to Shah Alam alone to compete with all those excellent students and perhaps smarter students in KL. But luckily, my dad is going to fly over here to accompany me. Sigh with relief.

Black, Black & White, White

So today, we actually went to Ampang to search for Ampang Park. Little did we know that, that are actually two different places. But we were lucky enough to have one handsome who overheard our conversations and told us that Ampang Park is at the other side. So, I approached him to asked for more details. He is really like the angel when we were lost. So gentleman! XD I can sense that my friends felt a bit jealous for letting me to snap away the handsome.

Then, we went all the way to Ampang Park. There we found the Vocal Training Centre. While sitting at the reception corner, we can hear people singing their a a A a a...It sounded so professional. Of course, the monthly course fee is damn expensive too. Since there were still plenty of time, we walked around Ampang Park. OMG! I Love this place man! The shop keepers are so friendly with the customers. Besides, things over here are cheap and supper affordable. We had our crazy time sweeping all the sales stuff. I even bought some beauty stuff (sigh...girls nowadays). And at the end of the day, we had only our first task completed. ==

Our current new sport

Back to my exam. The exam isn't really that hard if I studied hard but unfortunately, I didn't put much effort. All I did were just last minute study with plus minus 5hours sleep per day. So, my Bio and Phy were ruined. Alright, Phy were super hard and I dont have time to complete it also. Even people who studied for it couldnt do. Further more me. Math and Chem still okay. Then Moral, I just read the notes last minute and with the 3 lesson's fade memory I had but I think I wont fail it. '

Anyway, exam over and here I enter my second semester. I couldn't stop telling myself how fast time had passed. Still, I haven't settle with my university stuff. It seemed easy from the surface but it's really hard when I have to consider a lot of aspects.

Oh God, enlighten me the path you had prepared for me

Hold my hand and lead me through this maze

Today

2011-04-05T17:35:00.000+08:00

This is beginning of a new day,

God has given me this day to use as I will,

I can waste it or use it for good,

but what I do today is important,

because I'm exchanging

a day of my life for it!

When tomorrow comes,

this day will be gone forever,

leaving in its place something

that I have traded for it.

I want it to be gained, and not to loss;

good, and not evil;

success, and not failure;

in order that I shall not regret

the price that I have paid for it.

-from my calendar-

It's just a dream

2011-04-02T22:49:00.004+08:00

Minor headache attacked me again this morning and tiredness made me unwilling to get out of the bed. How I wish I can continue my sleep instead of rushing to some where else early in the morning. But thinking about what is going to happen in hours later, I know that I have to wake up regardless how sleepy I am.

Arrived at the gate of the Astro company, I can see long queue from far. Everyone dressed nicely like a real singer. As we walked into the compound, everyone's eyes were locked on us and some even scanned us from head to leg. That really attacked our self confidence as we do not have sexy slim body line and felt slightly uncomfortable. I actually chickened out although I'm not the one who is going for the Astro singing audition. Anyway, we still stayed and took this as an experience. Both of them even got the opportunity to appear in the television due to the short filming of audition scene. (Watch astro 301-Hua Li Tai on sunday 7pm)

The queue was so long that we were still waiting after we had our lunch at McD located somewhere 10min away, which is the only nearest restaurant at that area. (No more McD please). Also after rehearsing for more than 10 times. Of course, part of my job as the manager is to give them comments and advises which made me sounded like a professional music expert. Well, i'm not. I myself barely sing as well as they can.

Long queue...approximately 600 participators

It was just another long and lonely waiting after both of them went inside for the audition. The hot breeze made me sweat and felt more sleepy but I cant sleep publicly. I couldn't remember what I did in that two hours of waiting. Flipping biology notes, staring around and waiting for Miss Elaine who put me aeroplane and ended up with some super funny stories. When both of them finally came out, I can tell from their face the result of the audition. Of course, as a manager, I do hope they can pass this round. Even if they didn't, I am still proud of them.From what I heard, the judges were the judges from Taiwan Super Star Show which proved a certain standard. Awesome isn't?

Ying, Shaun and Me

Ying, Elaine, Shaun and me

By the way, Elaine, Ying and I plan to sign up for foundation in dancing course after semester one. Also joining flash mob. I dunno why we all suddenly got interested in dancing but things like this are hard to find anywhere.

Whatever thing happened hours ago were just like a dream. As thought it was never real.

Dream or reality, it doesn't matter anymore. Now is the time to get back into the final exam preparation mood and may all things fall into places by itself.

Ridiculous!

2011-04-01T19:15:00.002+08:00

April Fool! Hah, so what? I'm never interested in telling a lie on this particular day to make fun of somebody. Does fooling people considered as a sense of victory too? Well, I never experienced it before as I am always the one being fooled around. What to do? Innocent girl, you know. ;) But what I'm doing right now seem exactly unbelievable and ridiculous as if I am lying on April Fool.

Sometimes, things happened around are just hard to explain. Out of a sudden, I am so into a program. Then becoming the manager and photographer of two contestants. Further more, focusing on something I ain't suppose to before my major first semester exam. Ridiculous, isn't it? It might me an experience worth to gain in life as it only happens once in a blue moon, but I have no idea what is inside my mind right now. All in a mess. (Four flat dream is ruined T^T)

I somehow wonder, am I being too arrogant or having too much confidence in myself? Why can I keep on believing that all things are going to turn out good at the end of the day? Even getting a good result without studying? I hate this feeling. Oh come on, make me a peacock without feathers! Save me out of this wonderland and make me treasure every single hours that I have left to give my last push. Isn't what happened in SPM a good lesson already? Why didn't I wake up right away?

Oh Lord, give me the strength to succumb temptations.

Give me the wisdom in managing my time.

Make me a person who strive for what I want.

My Heart Aching

2011-03-24T00:23:00.003+08:00

When most people were laughing, I was sobbing. It's another regret I had in my life but still, thank God for His guidance and fulfilled my prayers. Also, thank those who prayed for me. Just that, I think I'm too greedy or I should say that I always compare myself with others (nerdies smarties). I know all these serve me right. I wasn't serious enough during the SPM exam weeks. Perhaps, I was too arrogant.

To view all things from the positive side, it wasn't really bad actually. All because of this fall, it proved me that I ain't any brilliant smart people. So, for the coming 1st semester exam for foundation, I really wanna prove out a difference. I remembered the "tsunami" I used to quote and I believe I can if I stop slacking and start studying now. At least I still have around two weeks time. As for the reward for myself, I'll buy myself a iPod touch generation 4 if I got all A's. Come on, Envira!

Instead of saying it as celebration, it's an expressing-emotion day with my college friends. We first went to Music Box at Mutiara to sing karaoke. It's a rare phenomena to hear me singing. Definitely, I'm not as good as Leandre, Shaun and Ying, our great K-singers. After dinner, we went for bowling with the rule--loser treat something to the rest. I'm lucky enough to not be the last. Yup, it was really sheer luck for all my games including ranking 2nd for the final round. Wow. Bowling is fun! But my fingers hurt. Ying & Elaine, remember what you both owed us!

Oh, one additional report over here. It's so insecure to sit inside Elaine's car. I doubt how she got her driving license. Kopi O? You will feel like the car is going to fall backward when driving up slanted slot. Other than that, she can step on the brake out of a sudden. Insane driver.

I feel better now. :)

Everything just begin

我要忘记背后，努力向标杆直跑

Done

2011-03-17T19:07:00.001+08:00

Hurray! Finally completed all my assignments for semester one! I actually took a leave to stay at home today to complete my assignments. Our assignments are still consider as easy since we just copy and paste for most of it. But, for university standard, they have one program which can detect the source of the content where copy and paste are illegal. Well, that's not my business yet.

Argh...days ahead will become busier and busier with lots of extra classes to rush up the syllabus. =S

START button

2011-03-13T20:56:00.001+08:00

11 March 2011

Friday night, I joined cell group under my friend's invitation for my very first time namely, Care group at Sunway area which is quite far from my place actually. We mat up at MidValley then follow my friend's friend's car to there. It's lucky for we had a former chef (what I heard) prepared dinner for us that night and you can tell how nice the food are just by the smell. Like any other gathering, we started off with worship hour then bible study and lastly sharing.

Although I'm a person who dislike to share out private stuff or even problems publicly, but I find this gathering beneficial as it's another way staying in touch with God and away from the hustle life that pull us apart from God. Besides, I like listening to other's sharing and take what they shared as my daily inspiration. Also, to acknowledge God's amazing grace in everyone's life.

Instead of joining my own church's cell group which also fall on Friday night, I joined an English medium cell group. Well, just to experience English medium style since I always wanted to experience it. Besides, i'm not that close with my own church's people. So, I'm so lonely...I'm nobody...you are my all...oh~ *MUTE* And over Sunway CG, i have my college friends. No doubt, I'll try to join Sunway CG again next time. I'll even pull Lilian and Christina over and Abby is already inside our member list. Cool. It seems like Friday night is going to be Kuching people's gathering night too! Awesome, huh?

12 March 2011

Early in the morning, I went to Sharon's hostel. Again, we went to MidValley (not again...) to help out with college education fair promotion. Of course, I was paid. Anyway, it's also good to gain some new experiences to dare myself to talk to the parents or students. Yea, time to train communicating skill. And as the day go on, I realized that I can actually talk more and more with the customers. Was I lying? Nononono~ Good counselor like me never will. At the same time, I also felt how those people who gave out leaflet felt whenever somebody felt reluctant to take it. Alright, that hurts a bit but I still wanna thank them for not wasting resources.

As it's almost approaching the end of the day, Gabriel, the naughty one started to imitate lecturers' and even principle's pose where Sharon will took all the photos down. You can actually realized that those admins over there are actually quite friendly especially Mr.Logon, students' favourite I bet. We were also being praised as the best batch of students who can talk to parents steadily without asking for help from the adults (Oh come on, we would rather murmur it through rather than pressing S.O.S.). I'll take that as a compliment. :)

This kind Mr. Logon even treated us RM150 for 7 person's dinner after work. Man, I love you! So the next thing was, we were aiming for some high class restaurant to celebrate our hard work. There, we went to Nodas, a western food restaurant. They are famous with their chicken (only got chicken and the weird peri-peri source) but seriously, it's not worth if that's a self-paid dinner.

While waiting for my friend's dad, we all went up to Sharon's hostel. There we heard some creepy sound like somebody is bathing. From living room, you can see the light of the bathroom was on. You know what, when Sharon go checked out the bathroom few minutes later, the floor were dry and the bathroom was actually empty. Lalalala....

Alright, over there, we actually started to talk about devotion stuff and I was sharing Our Daily Bread booklet with them. We eventually planned to have a group devotion time plus sharing time. Wow. Having the opportunity to meet up so many Christian friends is really something out of expectation but God, you had prepared all for me. Amen.

In all things, surrender to God

Time flies

2011-03-05T18:18:00.004+08:00

It's already March! One more month, I'll be sitting for my first semester exam. Well, seem like it's time to put my head down and focus.

Recently, I just completed the korean drama-- Deam High. That's such an awesome drama which I think you shouldn't miss it. Come on, just 16 episodes! This drama is about a group of teenage realizing their dream in singing and dancing field by succumbing the hardship. I just fell in love with all the songs they sang. OMG! I love Suzy's (Miss A) and IU's voice. They are so amazing. Besides, all the actors and actress are so handsome and pretty! XD

Saturday, a day I looked forward. Again, I'm standing inside badminton court holding the racket. It's almost one year that i had stopped any badminton competition. How I actually had this opportunity to stand inside the court again? Haha.. There's a simple story behind.

Honestly, I underestimated this inter church competition but they are actually like state player standard. This is a team game and I'm under SIB group. I played double in the first round and the opponent won with straight match. That was really a bad game as both my partner and I were quite nervous. Still, my partner is better and more stable than me, I should say. In the next round, I was sent to play single. Well, single is a game of stamina and that's where I was killed in the hand of a 12 years old girl, Christin (Daerah Player) with rubber set. I was like half dead after first set. But I wasn't disappointed at all. Instead I'm quite satisfy with the game I played today and looking forward for more opportunity to join competition again. As for my stamina, I gonna work out on that.

After the competition, I have to limp back home. I got my leg injured, during my first double match while stretching my leg to save a shuttle. This pain doesn't seem like normal muscle pain but more like muscle torn (no jokes) since it's at the satorius part.

Badminton, it's not the ending but the beginning.

Russian Class

2011-02-22T22:16:00.000+08:00

Русский язык является интересным

Looking at those weird alien words, my first reaction was, "what the hell are all those weirdy symbols?" Well, it's not just alien symbols but it's also hard to pronounce. Further more, there is a gender for non-living objects! Funny isn't it? What more to say about the complicated Russian grammar that is so different from English?

Despite of all the difficulties, my first Russian class doesn't make me feel like quiting. Instead, this class seems rather interesting. I have to thank the Russian lecturer who is so willing to spare her few minutes to guide me through the basic reading translating part. Yea, I catch up pretty fast. Still, I need more practices.

Я люблю тебя

Moving On

2011-02-20T21:03:00.002+08:00

It had been seven days, scene at airport was still fresh in mind. Seven days, I had walked out of panicking. Seven days, I had started my new life here.

College. Eat. Home. I started to get use with this life that I am living. Facing so many new faces. Knowing new friends from college. Joining Sunday service at Logos Presbyterian Church.

I'm doing fine here! =)

Love confession

2011-02-14T21:31:00.001+08:00

Pulling luggages, shambling into the airport. What day is today that i'm leaving on a Valentine's Day? Being abandoned by dear lover? Running away? Chasing after love?

Above all imaginary prediction, it's just a mere short-time farewell that I had came to today. Boarding the plane with all my dears waving outside the boarding entrance, you couldn't imagine how hard it is for me to leave a place full of irreplaceable memories although not even a single tear was seen. Admit or not, I had proceeded into another stage of life and greater things are yet to come. I could only say thank you for the memories.

To Life-E,

This is my second home as I had been spending most of my time there and you all are my new siblings. I really cherish all the wonderful moments with you all. Every single one of you, it's hard to ask me to forget. All your surprises (although I knew the plans because you people are very bad in hiding) and daily concern, it's more that what I have expected and touched me. Everywhere we go, we will surely become the highlight of people by doing out some weird actions or making out loud amplified noises. Our first audio singing record was indeed a great experience although I couldn't help much in the singing part. What more could I say other than keep praising how nice you all are?

As for all the mentors, accept my 90 degree bow. Thank you all for the effort in molding us into a better person and all your sacrifices for us. Of course, I never mean to leave the program before it officially ends.

-Public whispering-

Theresa- I always feel like you are my big sis. Remember to buy me air ticket back on your wedding day.

Angeline- Thank you for patiently listen and give me advices. Also the super delicious meal.

Mee Hung- You are a very humble gentle doctor and also my target.

Siew Chee- You look so young and like a kind mafia boss.

Xiao Wei- Thank you for the last minute financial class. I wanna do USD investment!!

Allen- Thanks for providing me daily transport but do drive safely.

Eric- You this loudspeaker made me so noticeable

Eunice- I want more cheesecake please. Feel free to skype with me whenever you need me

Luny- You know what I expect when we meet again. Glad that I can help.

Margret- Do not doubt your own potential but walk. Hope you figure out your future path soon.

Jocelyn- If I have a magic wand, I would make your sweet seducing voice mine (seducing? No)

Abby (volunteer helper)- You-bling bling-OMG-who-are-you-pretty?

To 5sc1,

It's always nice to hang out with you all. I have to admit that this is the very few classes that live like a family. Whenever I miss you all, I'll miss schooling. Somehow feel like going back and stop complaining school. Staying in the class making noises. I continue joining my gossip clique and having name shouted by teacher frequently. "Ah moi yang paling cantik di belakang!" Here it goes the rock voice from Pn Nurly shouting from the front. Organize more shocking impossible functions and become the young founder of the existence of certain events. Having our day dreams during Physic lessons and quarreling with Pn Tay but love her back later. Enjoying pizza with Miss Tan in Chemistry lab and got tempted to pull the shower stuff in chemistry lab (but never will I have the opportunity to do so). Keep busying Pn Voon with Biology questions until she is nearly suffocated. Ditching PJ class that will make me dirty and cursing Moral paper as I always got C or D. Complaining Pn Chong for keep throwing Maths homework and threatening me with demerit yet mostly are remained blank. CNY Visiting with bus, Orientation Day, 10 Clubs dinner, study group, Christmas gathering, 2011 CNY visiting, skype calling super noisy moments...One thing for sure, that's not our full-stop.

To The Big Bike Gang aka Koperasi Buddies,

Boss (still calling herself so...yerrr) miss you all so much. It's because of you people that I started cycling again after the flying-out-of-bike incident years back (just fly a bit la). I wanna go back to Koperasi and become the cashier. Go to Merdeka Palace again. Being teased and tickled by you people (wait I hate that!). Pressuring you all with eyes high works. Fighting for liberty but fail. Together we got scolded by our beloved principle who had retired recently for our failure in project. Holding thousand our ringgit and having heart pounding accelerated whenever calculating money after school reopen sales. Devon, it's your turn to bring them up!

Love is not of a single belonging that can only be selfishly shared with one.

Love is of distributing infinity equal sized love to all.

If writing love letters is a must today, I wouldn't be able to finish all even if I wrote until I broke my arm. Of course, my lovers list is not just of these few but a lot more. Don't feel like being forgotten or upset because you should know it better without needing me mentioning to you how much I love you all actually. Love is not just a mere word by combining L.O.V.E but it is a term that's more complicated than the four alphabets.

God, I love you too!

I love you

You love me

We are happy family

With a great big hug

And a kiss from me to you

Wont you say you love me too

Listen

2011-02-12T20:59:00.012+08:00

Blinded eyes, my hand was held but I wasn't afraid because I know, I wouldn't be led to a cliff. There was a line that crossed my mind, "walk by faith, not by sight". When I had my eyes cover removed, it was a breathtaking beach that I was brought to to have my own quiet moment with God.

In the time of quietness, it was your natural instruments that calmed my mind. At the same time, I was searching for your soft voice. Talk to me.

Listen, it was empty answer that I received at the end

My ears couldn't hear your voice

My eyes couldn't see your present

My hand couldn't feel your warm

Where are you when I needed you the most
Why are you leaving me trembling in fear alone
I am tossed on this isolated island

There are so many things remain uncertain in life

Mountain high obstacles
Ocean wide challenges

But isn't faith the belief of things that are not seen

Isn't broken that make us whole
Life is of a thrilling adventure
Waiting for us to explore

It's P.E.A.C.E that I found later
For I know, you are right there beside me
No matter what the seasons are

I'm soaring...

2011-02-08T17:10:00.001+08:00

What will you feel if you get to talk to the artist you admire the most?

I believe that's somehow impossible in reality.

But IF that impossible turns into possible,

I bet you will be jumping up high,

Soaring high like a bird, carefree.

It's hard to tell but easy to imagine right?

Although today you aren't any big hot star

But it was really out of my expectation that

We can actually have that short communication

Your ignorance, it doesn't matter any more

For what you did later make me drunk

Spinning at the same corner

Hurray STALKER!!!

我是...

2011-02-03T00:44:00.001+08:00

This is the first time i realize that I can be such a scary stalker...
nope...i should say i always am when i am crazy over a person...
Stalking people bring a great sense somehow...
Stalker I am...

Happy Chinese New Year to all

新年快了

This is my future

2011-02-01T22:29:00.007+08:00

Days back I had a visiting down to psychiatric hospital at 7 and half miles (七里半神经病院）with Life-E and accompanied by Dr Lai. That was my very first time stepping into psychiatric hospital and also to see my future working place (hopefully).

We were first welcomed by a man who suddenly walked out with open arms. Excuse him for he's one of the patients. Walking into the compound, I saw hands stretching out from the closed gate as if to ask for something or reach for something and most of them are old granny and grandfather with silvery white hair. Walking passed them without attending them made me felt rude and cold-hearted. Scratch that. I am not any generous and super kind girl anyway.

We entered a room and later divided into groups and each had one small corner. The patient was called in one by one. The first one I mat was a lady who aged 50 plus. She was diagnosed as bipolar (chronic mood swinging) and stayed inside there for nearly 10 years. She too was a normal person who furthered her study in Australia to realize her dream to become a fashion designer. That path ended up her closed inside a being watched compound. She was first suspected to have the symptom after her self-shaving hair action. Nevertheless, she appears to me as an exactly normal people who are able to confront her disease. Under my request, she sang me an old song that I have never heard of. Yet her sweet sound bring a sense of peacefulness.

A lawyer degree in London sounded exactly professional and highly educated. And this is the 50 plus man I mat later. He lost his passion in lawyer firm and dealing with cases. With that he changed to lecturer side. He always remembered what God said, "love your neighbour". Because of that, he was so willing to sacrifice his time and energy for his students who need his extra guidance and teaching. But I believe it's not wise to forget to love yourself though offering is good. Working under limited and packed time forced him to skip meals and sleep. The major reason which led him into bipolar was because of overload. He tried to kill himself when he thinks that it's pointless to live in this world but he was saved.

For me, he talked like a wise old man who had faced various challenges in life. He praised me as a smart girl from the way I communicate and planned what to talk about. Well, that's really an encouragement for me to keep moving on. He also advised us to study smart, not study hard. Yea, I'll bear that in mind.

This one hour plus chatting made me see things through a different window. Psychiatric patients aren't any scary violent people but i do have to stress that there really are some. You can see that, there are patients from a well-structured background. It's too early for us to discriminate them or mock at them. For we never knew what will we become in future. Their weak and broken soul need to be healed to walk out from the valley. This is why the acceptance of the society and family play a vital role in rehabilitation.

It's the sense of feeling being able to become their ears and help them to unload their burdens that made me feel like I had done some great job. Yea, this is what i'm going to become. It's too far for me to dream about after degree years's stuff but that's the direction I'm running toward.

This road that I'm taking twist and turn

My life my chance turning dreams into reality

Down this path faced with so many things

sometimes i feel like giving up and turn away

-I'll move on--Olivia Ong-

I'll Move On

2011-02-01T00:28:00.002+08:00

This is a Singaporean artist that i recently started to crazy over some of her songs. This is one of the songs that I found it inspiring.

(one of my favourite part)

Here I'm. Here I'm.
Lord I'll take your hand
And you will guide me along
Survive through this storm
So I say come what may
I'll hold on my hope
Yes, I'll walk down this road
And my passion drive my lead me on

For the first time

2011-01-23T00:00:00.001+08:00

For the first time
I felt that I'm a living corpse
Lying on the cold operation table
Having my organs exposed
There's nothing more I can hide

For the first time
I felt choked and speechless
Having my words circumscribed
Storing inside a wee and overflowing can
There's nothing more I can say

For the first time
I felt that I am real moron
Expecting to be famous and anonymous at the same time
Messing up the originally peaceful life
There's nothing more I can change

Yesterday & Today

2011-01-22T11:11:00.005+08:00

Woke up this morning I thought today is Sunday.Well, Saturday (the fact) doesn't make my life any relax. All I know is I have piles of works. Not school works but house works.

Yesterday was a great great day. We had outing program in the afternoon and I loved the moment when we were asked to say the truth regard the person's personalities or more toward the combination of praising and criticising. It's hard for me to accept criticism sometimes, I confess. I ought to believe that I know myself well, far better than anyone can. Perhaps, this mindset isn't out yet until now.

If criticise with a correct intention is good, I think I did a great job by making my friend cried. Later, I found myself having watery eyes too. Am I being too emotional these days? Crying have always been the hardest thing especially in public. It's still. There's a difference between crying and watery eyes. Crying with emotions but watery eyes is without emotion. There's just something wrong with my tear glands, I believe.

On the way back to church, we just suddenly came out with the idea of hanging out somewhere else. So, we went to go MBO for movie--天天有天. People have been telling me how touching this movie is and I shall prepare a box of tissue with me. So, I actually prepared myself to cry but things came out to be completely opposite. I only heard my laughter and my cheek or eyes had no track of tears.

After that, we went to Luny's house for Wii as we had planned earlier. Instead of Wii, Eric, Eunice and I stayed inside the room chit-chat (gossip for the exact term?). I would like to continue till midnight if not because I'm afraid my dad will close the house gate. This is not curfew. Just that I didn't bring key out. Besides, our own enjoyment had isolated the others and caused them to feel unhappy. Really, sorry for that. We didn't mean to spoil the night but we were just too into pouring out words. It could be hard for us to talk in a big group. It's not because of our selfishness but...it's just complicated to tell. Hope you understand someday.

Anyway, I can't wait to have another midnight chatting. You know, chatting with different people have different feel. Come on Es' group!

Mixture of feelings

2011-01-20T21:08:00.006+08:00

The morning sharing done by Theresa was fabulous. All her words somehow rooted into my heart instead of becoming a crossing train and forgotten later. I couldn't recall back all her words exactly but I know, my tears were fighting to come out from my eyes. Yea, you got me. It's weird when thinking back because the sharing wasn't on something touching. Perhaps, it's because she said out how I felt. Yea. Road ahead might seem uneven or sometimes dangerous. There will be times when we mistakenly fall into the traps but doesn't healing work better than being over protective? Ain't all these little matters that you encountered made you who you are right now?

Sad

Regard our school project, it was finally a comma for this month as we still have another two more slots in the next two months respectively. Little did they know, this will also be my last nostalgic memories with them as I wont be around soon. Leaving is really a bad idea now. It's hard for me to say that to the students that I'll be meeting them back when I know I don't have the chance any more. Can I come back on March to join the camp at least?

Sad, Hoping

The group of students who were being listed as the naughty batch were eventually the group that welcome us most. They stayed back and took photo with us. They even stood there, waving all the way to send us back. There was also a girl who praised me look like Yoona especially when I'm smiling (I posted this everywhere as I am really happy to hear that). When the post was up on facebook, my friends started to comment on my charm as a sin instead of fault for taking away handsome's attention. I sensed jealousy. Anyway, thanks for the compliments.

Happy

The whole program was awesome. Congratulation to all Life-e members and leaders plus volunteer helpers. I hope I can continue to hear good news from you all. Yea, I haven't tell anyone of you regard this. Next week I will. I long for longer days to spend with you people.

Missing ppl

Students from that Stampin secondary school started to add us on Facebook. Alright, perhaps it's time for me to be more open with my friend list. Usually i only approve people I know. I don't really like having numbers or thousands of friends in my list especially those I don't really know. But thinking in the another perspective, this is how we stay connected with the students although I believe with time this weak friendship fade. Why am I thinking in this way? Too pessimistic.

Confused

Realizing Dream

2011-01-09T22:38:00.008+08:00

But row your boat of dreams on

Towards the shores of tomorrow

When I was a kid, I dreamed of becoming an artist. Then teacher. My dream kept changing as I grow. I had thought of almost all the career in this world like scientist, dessert master, hotel manager, interior designer, engineer...thinking of how amazing they are. Reached form five, I had smaller my options to psychology and psychiatry when I thought of how great it is to cure human in another angle--inner healing.

Realizing dream is equally a tough challenge. Sometimes we ponder if that is what we really want in ten years later from now. Sometimes we wonder if that is what that can help us to survive in this money world. Sometimes we consider our financial support to study the course we want. Sometimes we worry if we have the intelligence required in that field. Sometimes...

It's only today that I finally stepped out my first step in pursuing my dream. There are times when I thought realizing dream can be of real impossible but today, everything seem to be just begin. There will definitely be certain hardship to face in future. This life that I'm choosing to live now wouldn't be an easy-going path.Thinking of the need of inner healing, I couldn't allow myself to have my mission fail. The more develop the world become, the higher the risk of having sick human. These human, need to be cure either internally or externally.

I had been through all the stages when I was struggling in between decisions and when my path were restricted. I eventually got fade out with life of choices to opt. But somehow, miraculously, you will find a smooth path that is prepared ahead. If you ask me how sure I'm with what God wants me to do, I couldn't tell exactly what He wants. He didn't answer me directly. But I could see that, if He thinks that's a wrong path for one, He'll block the way. This time, He didn't.

Walk by faith, not by sight

The Happening

2011-01-08T16:06:00.009+08:00

Repeated life but interesting life. This is the life that I'm currently living. It seems like I'm going back to my busy life again and I feel way better living this life rather than having myself shaking my legs somewhere at the kopitiam.

I rejected to participate in the missionary job held in Johor after considering my A-level path and the scholarship Help offered me. At the end of the day, I turned both down instead of choosing one. Then I decided A-level at lodge. Well, I did went to the office and had a talk with the advisor but then the person in charge wasn't there. Back home, I changed my mind. After that, I was introduced to Live-E. I wasn't interested at first but I seek that missionary job as a medium to boost my faith in God and building relationship with Him. Today, I'm so satisfy with my life for I made the right choice. You see how He lead you to walk in His path. He may blocks your way but at the same time He provides another path. I should say, a far better path.

This camp really made me grow. I somehow saw changes within me though its only the first week that we had gone through. First week was focused on character building lessons. As it approached to the end of the week, we moved into field work planning. We are going to have BGR talks in Stampin secondary school and maybe we'll have some role-play plus group discussion or sharing. There are just so many things needed to be planned as I'll be leaving next week for vacation and when I come back, the next day will be our big day.

Basically, I'm living a life of spending my morning till evening at Life-E. Back home, watch TV then reading and finally sleep. Some of the nights I'll have to attend youth gathering.

Yesterday till today and probably until next Monday will be my busiest day. After Life-E on Friday, I have to attend Power Youth gathering. Then I had long chat with my old friend and did some design work until 1am. The next morning I work up early to accompany my sister to school (Oh. I couldn't believe I did this). Then went to Life-E for camp site viewing. My eyes barely open of course. The camp site looks fine and more towards a place for adventurous activities that I'm looking forward to enjoy. On the way when our pastor send us back home, I was talking excitedly with my friend (we see each other everyday). Then out of a sudden, our chatter stopped, eyes looked ahead and somehow we were paralysed. The "bang!" afterwards brought us back awake after hitting to the chair in front. This is my very first time of speculating an accident. My heart beat doesn't go wild nor did I screamed. But I really thank God that at that moment, no one was sitting at the middle on the car. Or else, I bet that person will just fly out. Also, thank God that the Anser has harder steel that protected us from injuries.

Supposedly, I should take a nap this afternoon but I guess there's just no much time left for me to rest. Well, I still have short talk to lead (my very first time) in my youth later. And I just remembered that I haven't read through the story that I have to tell on Sunday morning in the Sunday class. Yea, lots of undone stuff but I still have 2 hours before my Colourful Youth begin. No nap but continue to work.

Have my vision set ahead, Sunday after morning service I'll have to clear out time to chat with one doctor to know further about the field. Then I'll have to do some house cleaning and house works. Not to forget my packing too. Monday, we have another extra working day to rush our preparation stuff before some of us go travelling (3 leaving during the same period). Maybe early that morning, I have to rush back to my school to get all my documents left in school so that I can do my registration stuff. I guess it's a yes from my parent. Haha. Tuesday morning before I left, I'll still be joining Life-E programme. Then, I'll be leaving for money spending activities.

Envy? How could you ever have the opportunity to experience this kind of life?

I Love my life

5 more days

2011-01-05T22:02:00.006+08:00

Counting down could be happening on the day you can wait for no more or the day you wished to postpone in your whole life. What if it's an ambivalence feel that I'm having right now? Happy because I'm going to meet up my friends soon and this is my very first travelling without family experience by air. We'll be going to Genting, shopping, swimming... Sad because the day for my final decision to be announced seem so close yet I haven't received any more signs from God. If I have decided, then it'll be easier for any registration stuff to be done at KL.

Currently, I had my days spent at church attending Live-E. Most of the activities that we are covering now were like lessons to amour us before we go out to school talk. And this day, God talked to me through His words.

But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough troubles of its own.

Matthew 6;33~34

I am definitely not worrying about how am I going to walk that path that I had chose now but I'm worrying if what I had chosen is the same as what God had planned for me. If it's His way, I will walk without fear and worry. But, what's your answer God?

Hold me, lead me

Back To school

2011-01-03T14:46:00.003+08:00

Today is a quiet Monday. When I woke up, the house was left empty. All the buns that I had chose from the bakery yesterday were being eaten and I couldn't even find the plastic wrap in the rubbish bin. (I'm mad!!!) Looking at this empty house, I shuffled to my computer room and spent my whole morning there.

Alright, it's January 2011.

Those who are schooling, went to school.

Those who had jobs, went back to work.

Those who has vacation planning, went for holidays.

Those who got NS, went to their camps.

Those who are vagrant, have their time spent like passing years.

Whenever I online, it's the future talk that I heard. I had my own dream. I had found some sources. I had seen one sign but waiting for more signs from God. I knew the risk of taking what I want. I know I wasn't that super smart student. I know all the pros and cons. After all I that I known, I know, I don't have money to talk about this. All these are left for my parents to make the final approval of giving me the financial support. Somehow, I still wonder if it's a rush of thought.

Anyway, my life wouldn't be that bored. As I have few jobs that I finally realized how shall I accept all instead of ranting about the tiredness I would suffer from. Starting from tomorrow, I will officially begin my local short term missionary Job which has a working hours from Tuesday to Friday. Sunday, I will become the teacher of Sunday school instead of assistant. I also joined the worship group and I'm in the guitar group. I found it odd somehow to have girls playing guitar on stage. Every Monday (planning), I'll go for car driving lessons. Besides, I'm still my house's no-salary-maid. But I hasn't do anything yet so far.

Luckily I am not a real vagrant

The ending, The beginning

2011-01-01T09:17:00.004+08:00

Of The Ending...

31 Dec 2010 was such a memorable day which left me with all the nostalgic memories that I would never forget in my life. Early in the morning, I was woke up by two guys (Jared and Thronton) who pulled a big bike from Arang Road to my house. I left house around 5.15am headed to Elsa's house to pick her up. Never did I knew that cycling cycling early in the morning is the best timing as you can enjoy freezing cold air touching your skin.
Helping Koperasi doing the selling made me feel like I am still part of the school and honestly, I just love everyone in the koperasi including the new members. I believe the most special thing we had archived here is the lasting friendship and solid relationship between members.
In the afternoon, we left school and cycled all the way to Tabuan Jaya. I don't deny the fact that I'll still tremble and worry when cycling in the main road despite of the experiences I have gained in three days. The negative thought of falling and crushing by cars kept struck my mind which made me more cautious. And this journey really worn me out especially I still have to go uphills. When it seemed like almost raining, we went to Thornton's house for shelter and her mom prepared us delicious maggie mee with half boiled eggs and sausages. If they were to come to my house today for lunch, they will never be able to enjoy something as yummy as this. Then we had our three bikes (Poor Devon have to cycle back) on Jared pick-up car and we sat besides the bike at the back. One thing for sure, our Big Bikes Gang will still continue our crazy and insane programs in the coming year or years maybe.

After I arrived home, my mom told me that dad had called a family gathering dinner. I was so tired and barely open my eyes that time but still I went. After eating the scrumptious and mouth-watering food, I felt more energetic. We went to Bolevard afterward but it was too jammed. Then we changed to The Hills, thinking that there shouldn't be many people there. Well, the two basement carpark lots were nearly filled. All my other siblings went to Sushi King to eat whereas I walked alone to Times bookstore. If you wanna buy a book to read, just don't come here. The books over here are like RM10 more than other bookstores but most of the books can be found here. Talking about books, I'm such a great fans of Jodi Picoult and Mitch Albom. I'll have my fingers tapping through their books every time. Currently, I was planning to add in Nicholas Spark and considering Paulo Coleho (forgot his name). Without countdown, I jumped into bed and had a sound sleep.

Still, I think that this year is such a wonderful year but time with no mercy passed like a rushing water

Of The Beginning...

2011, I just couldn't wait to discover more what is going to happen next in my life. Up to now, I'm still currently standing at the crossroad and wondering my next path. I'm pretty sure that I have my own direction and I realize how hard that path could have be but isn't it something to be proud of if I pull it through? Of course, the major thing I'm considering now is financial support. What will I feel to have my parents busying working and earning money whereas I spend all out? I have humanities too. Choices, I couldn't make any now. I'll just see how all things fall into places first. Whatever it is, with God, everything is possible.

Happy New Year

Longest Cycling Journey

2010-12-28T20:10:00.003+08:00

Thornton and Jared came to my house this morning with their mountain bikes and wore like professionals. Whereas, I took out a road bike which is foldable, has small tyres so that it can be easily carried and an annoying bell like selling vegetables. It's okay, I look cute on it.

We moved from my house to sunny hill to enjoy the ice-cream first. The ice-cream over there taste super nice. It melted right after entering my mouth and cooled me internally. Then, we cycled all our way to BDC. It's to my conscious that heading to BDC must pass through the busy main road with many cars passing by. This idea scared me at first because I seldom ride bicycle and neither did I ever ride out to main road. It sounded dangerous. But with two of them guiding me and Jared riding on my small bike (OMG! He looks so funny), we managed to reach BDC for bowling. This is also my very first time to play bowling and it's amazing that I got the second place and defeated Jared. Muahahaha! And Thornton was the winner who scored so many marks more than us. (I bet he trained secretly) But, I got my thumb injured. I believe that is when bad luck started to clung on me. My thumb eventually bleed and I pasted plaster in order to continue my game. As I threw the ball, my plaster flew out to the lane too. So, I stepped onto the lane to take back my plaster. Swoop...The next second, I was lying on the lane. I never knew that they put oil on the lane! That's so embarrassing. As it's approaching 1 o'clock, we made our way back and arrived at Jared's house to rest. At that time, I was already completely exhausted. Jared then pour us Ribena. As He was pouring, the cap of the container opened and the water splashed on the table. I couldn't stop myself but laughing at him. Then, I felt my pants got wet and realized that the Ribena that he splashed on the table flowed to my side. At that moment, all the laughter were no longer because of splashing but wetting my pants.

Due to lack of exercise, I had bad muscle endurance and my legs and hands were jelly like after I cycled for that long distance. After bath, I was so tired that I slept for hours. Even after I woke up, I still feel powerless. I had been sleeping too often these two days.

I'm darkie!!!

A timely gift

2010-12-27T23:22:00.004+08:00

Well, that was exactly the title of the post in Star newspaper where you can see my face. It was really kind of awkward when they came my house and asked me to join my family taking photo for Star front page just before I left to Santubong. (for more information, check out on the newspaper)

24 Dec 2010
As we drove into Santubong resort, the resort was surprisingly quiet and only countable cars can be seen at the parking lots. This place seemed like it had been forgotten by people. Even the lobby and the cafeteria were empty. This might sound creepy.
After settling down all the luggages, I changed into my swimsuit and dipped into the freezing cold swimming pool. The effect of the wind blowing wildly at the same time made me tremble with cold. As time past, I finally get through with it. All I did were only dipping in water as I have no idea how to swim. I did tried and ended up hearing laughter from my family. I told you I don't know how to swim! But, I wasn't willing to give in that easily. I tried a few times and the more I tried the longer the distance I go with my one breathe. I learned the basic learning skill

chop heads off!

Night, my mom prepared steamboat for us. That's supper delicious Christmas Eve meal and I ate a lot more than my normal consuming quantity. I opened out my biscuit box while watching the TV channel. It was out of my prediction that my biscuit just finished within one day and finally, I heard my brother's compliment. I thought they don't like it.
I shared bed with my youngest sister that night and I have no idea why she kept glue to me. She asked me to brush teeth with her, sleep beside her and even waited me to sleep when I was so into reading--The Last Song by Nicholas Spark. The setting of the romance story of the book is at the beach which some how made me wondered if the same thing in the story will happen to me in actual life. Vacation, a hot guy, crush, date...

25 Dec 2010
I woke up in the midnight by my annoying Christmas message ringtone and realized that I didn't even do my countdown. I always sleep like a pig when people were doing countdown. Finally, it's Christmas!
I let my brother and sister to have the buffet breakfast as I had tried it before though I couldn't recall how all the food taste like but they came back with super bad comments.
It will be weird if you go to beach without stepping out to the beach. That is exactly the thought that I'm holding on but not my eldest sister. Yea, I was finding somebody to accompany me but luckily I have my brother who is also interested to go. Not long after my brother and I stepped out of the hotel room, not even reaching the beach, it started to rain and we have no choice but made our way back home. Then we went down to swim together under the rain which only last for 5 minutes. The scorching hot sun took over the clouds' play and radiated heats. I was completely a darkie when I came out from the pool. The sun left no mercy to me and burned my skin until hot red, making the outline of the swimsuit obvious. I still remembered that I constantly removed my goggles and raised my face up so that I won't become a superman by having two colours on my face--the region under the goggles with lighter colour, the region outside with darker colour.
After that, I went to the beach with my brother again. From far I can hear the sound of the wave calling me. As I ambled toward the sea, the wind came touching my face and brushing my hair, letting my hair dancing wildly in the air. This is the nature I love so much and indeed a panoramic and enchanting view. The idea of making snowman by using sand then struck me. I thought it's really impossible.

Sand man

On the way going back to the hotel, I realized how jam the traffic was and how long the queue were which made a contrast with the day I entered here. Noises are heard everywhere. Doesn't matter beach or swimming pool or even the lobby, all were filled with people. Maybe they too want to spend their Christmas night here.

Crowded

26 Dec 2010
Supposedly, my mom and my dad should be the one who go for the buffet breakfast but she went home on 25 Dec. So, I went early around 6.15am with my dad to the restaurant. The food there were lack of variety but honestly, it wasn't as bad as what my siblings complained.I have only limited time to enjoy as we have to rush back to church early that morning for our (three of us) baptise ceremony. After the Sunday service, I'll be leaving to Matang Wildlife for church camp. Wow! Tired!

Christmas Cookies

2010-12-23T19:40:00.006+08:00

Christmas, is always the day I'm looking forward and the day I love most throughout the whole year, among all the other festivals. And today, I suddenly have this baking hormone rush to urge me to bake cookies. So, I just chose a recipe I found from magazine for Christmas and had my dad to buy me some of the ingredients need including mix fruits. Well, I don't actually like it very much but I just follow the recipe. Although I did cut down the quantity of sugar used, the cookies still taste sweet for me. I gathered all the cookies and realized that I baked a lot. I suddenly questioned myself why do I baked in the first place. Thinking back, perhaps it's the Christmas spirit rather than baking hormones (no such thing) that is burning wildly within me. With cookies and some soda, I believe I'll have a perfect Christmas eve at the beach. I can also try to put cookies for Santa this year. It's only the tradition that I followed because I never believed in the existence of Santa. Somehow, I can hear the Jingle bells ringing and the Christmas songs playing to break the silence of the night and bring a sense of peace and shalom.

Mincemeat Cookies

Look good, smell good.
Has the ability to cause people droll

Anyway, I have to thank my little sister, Grace at the age of 7 who is so willing to help me. I ordered her to do this and that and she did all perfectly with her tiny hands. Without her, I could have be still baking alone now.

I wish to celebrate Christmas and playing snow at the same time.

Sibu Trip

2010-12-21T17:53:00.012+08:00

16 Dec 2010

We left house around 11am and arrived Sibu around 5pm. All I did in the long journey was only eat, sleep, see and pee.
At night, my youngest uncle treat us dinner at Zhong Chu. Well, the dishes here are delicious but the price here are kinda costly.

17 Dec 2010

In the afternoon, we went to 3rd Aunty's house to have lunch together. After that, most of my time are spent in front of the rectangular screen. There, I completed 公主嫁到 and started watching 蒲松龄. All these are Cantonese drama.

Oh, I also played toys with my little cousins.

game...

18 Dec 2010

San Yang Da Sha

Mee Tree XD

We spent the whole afternoon shopping. Haha. Mom was surprisingly generous so I begged over almost everything I want but for sure, she wont allow all. Anyway, she bought me my own swimsuit (yay, time to learn swimming!).

Finally persuaded my mom to buy me this special shampoo for coloured hair under Lilian recommendation.

Then, we went to Sibu Festival at the opposite of San Yang Da Sha. Compare to Kuching Festival, Kuching Festival is much more interesting and has more types of food than Sibu Festival.

This is the ONLY famous stall.
You need to take numbers and queue up to buy it.

This is it!
Fish ball with meat inside
Not bad

19 Dec 2010

Morning, we went to Sibu Market. The market was crowded with people. There are stalls selling various things rom fresh vegetables, meats and fruits to can foods and to toys.

Mom and Granny buying Mian Sien

Cha Zhu Mee...RM5

Kam Pua...RM2.20

Just after one hours, my uncle lead us to another place to take lunch. Wait, I just had my breakfast one hour ago! That's why I didn't order.

Happy Hours Cafe
(Self Service cafe)

Tom Yam Mee

Fu Chou Mee (forgot the name)

Kueh Tiao with Samba

My mom was kind of worry that we will get some mental disability after sitting in front of the computer for so hours and kept complaining boring, so she bought us to Shi San Garden in the evening.
Just when we arrived there, the sky seemed to be cloudy. My parents take care of all the small kids whereas my brother and I went up hills to take photos. Ouh, bad luck. The camera's battery went flat. Minutes later, the sky started to pour down droplets of water in ascending speed. We have no other choices but to make our way back home.

20 Dec 2010

Morning,we went to Everwin (at Bus Terminal area). According to my mom, Everwin is famous with fresh vegetables and fruits.

Back home, I started watching Japanese movies. OMG, this movie is supper funny.

Nodami Cantabile

Oh handsome and cutie

In the evening, I suggested to go back to Shi San Garden for phototaking before dinner with my 4th uncle's family.

I dare not to walk. My legs and hands were shaking before I took another step forward.

Dinner
Oh nice food and the price is reasonable

This photo looks like after photoshop but it's actually original photo.
We both climbed up the fence and asked my dad to help us take.

21 Dec 2010

We wake up at 6am and left my granny's house at 7.30am. Again, Granny was crying. Saying goodbye is always something hard.

This is probably the last time we stay at here, Granny's old house

Every night, I hardly fall into sleep as I missed my bed. The smell of the Wen Xiang to scare away mosquitoes caused me hardly sleep because I felt like smelling smokes from cigarette and got suffocated. There are also one morning when my mom forced me to wake up and I stood up angrily and knocked my head against the low ceiling. Every afternoon, I have to chase cats out of the kitchen. I even stepped on two cats when I walked in the house without looking at the floor. Well, I had great memories at the old house. The old house might not be any comfortable place to stay but at least, it gave me a sense of "back to kampung".

But, they are moving into a new house soon. No more kampung life! I bet I'll miss it.

New Semi-D house.

A night to remember

2010-12-17T22:05:00.006+08:00

Hah! 15 Dec 2010. Exactly ten days before the actual date of Christmas. Of course, the very reason I run this party on this particular date is because I wont be free after this date (kinda selfish). Well, there's nothing more to say other than concluding this night as a wonderful nostalgia night at Million A.

Before we went to the party, Lil and I went to shop to buy Liese Bubble Hair Colour which cost RM38 in the market. At least it's cheaper than the cost to dye your hair in the salon but as for the quality, I couldn't guarantee anything yet as I just used it. According to my friend, the colour will become more obvious after washed for several times.

Marshmallow brown

Cassie Berry

After we bought it, we went to Khai's house to have our virgin hair dyed together. I had Khai to help me whereas Lil had Chin Woon to help her. I dyed twice. First time I used my marshmallow brown then the second time, I used Lil's leftover Cassie Berry to dye the lower part of my hair. Of course, the colour doesn't turn out to be what we expected. Lil's hair remained black but it seems to be brown under light. Mine changed into golden brown and the colour focused on the top of my hair. Well, it seemed to be like my hair took a more obvious changes than others. I think it depends on the hair.
Honestly, I do feel slightly uncomfortable and dizzy with chemicals pour on my head.

See, the brownish colour. Now more obvious. Ohohoho
BUT
This effect can only be seen with the aid of light

5sc1...nearly all attended

Graduated!

The dishes here are kind of costly and tasted normal. After enjoying dinner, we had our free time. We(some) went down to the fish pond to have our legs massage but there are only countable fishes in the pond and our feet were not entertained. Some were playing the block game crazily with evil punishment. They had a mixture of all kind of drinks, soups and sources. God bless those who drank it. HAHA! We then moved into slot 3 that was the card writing plus cards giving part and we have to read out the wishes aloud. Followed by the Christmas Songs singing part lead by Ewen. We hugged and laughed together. Some even jump here and there until the workers down there came up to advice us not to. See, how naughty these people are. The workers even took our photos and asked for our permission to post on their Facebook page. Don't be surprise if you see our photos. Overall, we made this gathering a night to remember.

Tempted? Like those high class menu but if you know the ingredients, I bet you'll vomit. *PUNISHMENT DRINKs*

Fish spa

This group of friends are really nice to hang out with. We do crazy stuff together and it was laughter that I heard that night. It's my pleasure to get to know everyone of them.

Actually, I planned to download the Vit C's song but something went wrong with the download. I planned to make people cry. I know how evil is this but you barely see people crying right?

Thank to Matt especially for assisting me.

Thank to Ewen for leading the Christmas song.

Thank to Leong and Sarah for helping me to calculate money.

(The total was RM577.30...collecting money is not easy man)

Thank to Khai for helping me to dye my hair and also drive us there.

Thank to everyone who shown up and to spare their precious time with us tonight.

I just Love this photo so much!!!
But
It doesn't look nice if I crop out Eric's face XD
Ah...original is the best!!!
[Shi Fu and Tu Di]

My December

2010-12-16T00:25:00.004+08:00

SPM [Add Math]
SPM [Physics]
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SPM [Chemistry]
MY BIRTHDAY!
SPM [Biology]
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SPM [Art]
SPM [BC]
5sc1 Christmas Party
Sibu
Sibu
Sibu
Sibu
Sibu
Sibu
Cycling at certain area of KCH
Cycling Part II
Santubong
Santubong
Santubong //Camp
Camp
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Church year-end dinner//Count Down

BC Paper

2010-12-14T15:36:00.003+08:00

I'm not suppose to worry and I don't worry at first. Slowly I was tortured by this anxiety that I might wrote out of topic for my BC paper.

Thinking back, the very reason I take Chinese regardless the fact that my Chinese sucks is because of the pride of a Chinese. We all got saluted by the inviligator. Well, it's obvious that we all know the risk but the spirit of taking Chinese within is burning vigorously (I wonder).

This time's Chinese paper is super hard or I should say it's always hard for me but at least I have the essay part to save my life during normal school exam. But this time, all the questions of the BC essay are super hard and I barely think of a point to write. That's the reason I stared at the paper for half an hour without moving my hand. I was thinking of passing a blank paper up but I don't want to fail this subject. In terms of vocabulary, I did better than my normal exam. In terms of points and coherency, I have no idea what was I writing at all. I just have this feel that I was writing empty stuff and this thinking keep rotating in my mind and took away my happy spirit. I think I'm just going to expect a D or C for my Chinese. Oh no!

I don't expect for excellent but just don't out of topic. Please...

Art

2010-12-13T18:06:00.003+08:00

Well, things went pretty well! =)

The funniest thing was that the inviligator really prepared hair drier! Listening to the sound of the hair drier drying the water colour drawing made me laugh because we were like talking for fun regard the hair drier stuff before exam. Kueh Khong even "tok tok tok" the table from the beginning till the end. It's kind of annoying! haha...

Thank God!
Thanks to my art tuition teacher's guidance.
Thanks to Puan Liaw's last minute teaching.

This is my draft before exam...well, it's kinda similar with the actual one.

My hand

2010-12-12T21:53:00.002+08:00

This morning at church, my dad received the phone call from the art teacher saying that the art lesson have to be earlier to this afternoon 2pm. I was like what the...I have badminton with my friends. So I refused to go and scolded the teacher at the same time. Well, we did informed the teacher that we wont be free tomorrow (all of us) and she agreed to have the lesson on monday morning. So, what's her purpose if she changed to sunday afternoon when she already knew we can't.

I really feel bad to put people aeroplane. You wouldn't know how bad it feels like unless you had that experience. So, I insisted not to go for art lesson although the exam is on tomorrow. My dad was fine with my decision when I said I'll draw it at home tonight but my mom, she was quite angry with me for I chose badminton over learning for art.

I did try to draw. But everything went so wrong. The colours especially. I couldn't mix out nice colours like what i did in the previous two drawings. I drew 5 and threw 5. I tried to console myself by telling that the paper I have tonight is lower quality than the one I had in tuition. So, my mom came in and nagged again when she saw my frustrated expression. Well, I do slightly regret for not going back to the art lesson. Oh my, the Art paper is just a matter of tomorrow!

God, control my hand

Inscrutable

2010-12-10T19:15:00.001+08:00

You stretched your hand touching my head

Melted my heart, heated my face

Like a child, I surrender into your shoulder

Closing my eyes, listening to your breathing

Wish that this moment can stay forever

For my heart, you had stolen it

Your smile, your wink brighten my world

Monopolized my heart, ruling my soul

Like a puppet, you manipulate my move

Dancing elegantly and gracefully under your fingers

Believing that you are my puppeteer forever

For my mind, you had fully occupied

Your love, it was only the facade I saw

You fooled me, you stabbed me

Your acting ably, far more outstanding than Oscar awarders

Lied me with inveracity actions and prevarication

To win gratification and falsity desire

For my eyes, you blinded with your hands

Every night you creep into my dream

Make me cry, make me crazy

Like a playback machine, reminding me the past

Every pictures add another pain to my heart

Denying the truth that was set in front

For the moment I realized, even the evil you I couldn't resist

Now you know

2010-12-09T00:09:00.016+08:00

This year birthday is kinda special. Well, it fall on public holiday but in between SPM exam. My mom went KL for some course and my sister went Shang Hai for her education stuff. So, only left me and the two guys. Well, guys don't really have fancy ideas in celebrating birthday. Which means no birthday cake, no going out, no presents and so on. But these two guys are super.

Maggie Mee prepared by my Brother.

Then my dad cooked lunch. Well, they both can cook well. They are like the chef when my mom isn't around. I'm too lazy to cook but don't doubt my skill. =P

Bro's fancy ability = 20%

Dad's fancy ability = 20%

From grace obviously. Haha...She gave me the key chain that she received from church as a present but that's cute! haha

Grace is always the one who is so excited to make card for people during their birthday.

Fancy ability = 90%

My sis, who is currently enjoying herself somewhere bought me NIKE shirt! haha...told you, girl has more fancy idea. LOVE her so much!

Fancy ability = 85%

(Tomorrow is her birthday but I have no idea what to buy. My fancy pability = 50%)

Mom, I'm waiting for a present from you! haha...

Fancy ability = unknown

Regard Presents...

My very first present which is wrapped nicely. You know me. I'm super in love with chocolates!

Coconut flavor my favourite!

Nice birthday card! XD I also keep card nicely

The longer it is, the more I like.

A present that I had received but never realized. Thanks for the truth.
Each star is written with some words of memories inside.
A great reminder of our past.

Water Tumbler! blue again. haha!

I look so handsome in that photo! haha...This is so creative by asking me to read with a special torch.

Celebration at Starbucks!

Tze Syn and I.
Thanks for the treat.
I enjoyed my day!

Blueberry cheese cake, Chocochip, Latte, Tiramisu

Tiramisu.
The powder above cause my throat to feel ichy. haha

Blurberry Cheese cake
Well, the cheese doesn't taste that sweet. More like pudding and that's nice. =)

Cappuccino Cheese cake
Bought this at Secret Recipe myself

Regard my friends...

There are also times when I feel down and searching through the phone list but ended up clicking none.

I admit that, I do have a wide circle of friends. That's pretty amazing. Each and every year, I come to know new friends from any kind of sources like tuition, clubs, random chatting, facebook, blog and so on. It's my pleasure to get know with you all.

But having many friends isn't something to show off especially when you fail to take care of everyone equally. I remembered last year was a great struggle of friendship year but I ended up no longer that close with that friend. Quite a sad news. There are also friends that I seldom talk to or have nothing to talk to. Friends who I think that they are annoying. (sorry for that) There are also friends who sacrifice or see me as their best but I didn't take them as the same way. Friends who silently helped me but I know. I'm really sorry for what I had done to you all (if you feel that way) for my inability to be a nice friend. I will try my best to have a brand new start with you all.

This year, I started getting closer with my new gang namely Lilian, Shirley, Vivian and me. We are the often shoot by teachers' group for we can talk none stop in the class regard anything. There just seems to have no boundaries for our chatter. Maybe Vivian isn't as crazy as we three are. It's also because of them that I started watch Grey's Anatomy (super long series and I finally gave up). Sometimes, they failed to achieve my expectation as human are imperfect. Sometimes, I think that I still aren't that close with them. That feel might be still true until now but I seriously cherish all the moments happily with them. This is one of the gang that I feel comfortable to be in and not acting myself to be somebody. They taught me reality and future and mostly day dreaming! Ha! Thanks a lot. I hope, we remain as close as we are now.

As for my old gang, all the members are kinda like distance and forming their own new gang. For the girls, at least I feel like the distance has make our friendship grow stronger. But for the guys, although I'm still in the same school with them, we just rarely have conversation. Once in a while when they saw me, they will make fun of me. Said that I didn't want to bother sc3 students. HA! I never felt that way. Obviously, we just aren't that close as we used to be.

I also thank for those friends who bring me back to a real life of a Christian. Their constantly sharing, helping and encouragement have silently influenced my thought, my actions. Bring me back to the right path. I had been having a name of a Christian for past few years as in doing everything blindly with bother much. The definition of a Christian for me that time will be a person who goes to church every Sunday. It's them who started making me gaining interest to know more about complexity of Christianity which is sometimes very confusing. It's them who let me determine to pursuit the faith that I lost. Thank you!

Friendship might seems easy but it's always complicated when you really know the truth.

Regard past school life...

School life at first was boring. Then came to a stage where I'm super busy especially I got the president post. Well, I love this post because loves organizing and running projects (ever considered project manager). This is where I got called BOSS. Koperasi is like my second most often place in school. I have a group of members who are so close with me. Things become easier to coordinate as we always work in a team and every works seem to be something fun. I spent all my time and effort building up the club yet all these seem to be like dirt in teachers' eyes. Who cares about the teacher's comments (I DO!).

After July, my life completely changed. At first, I couldn't get use with the change. Sooner, I fall in love with this change. It's like you don't have to worry anything but focus on enjoying life in school with friends. Freedom!

Regard relationship...

Big eyes and curious? Bad news! I'm still single and there's nothing much you can dig from me. Sometimes, seeing couple sitting together irritates me and I will eventually wondering when will I have this scene played in real life.
Finding a right person at the right moment is equally a hard deal. To avoid hurt, don't simply allow spaces for anyone. This is probably the reason I'm refusing people to get into my heart. Sometimes, I felt discourage and felt like I'm uncompetitive with other girls who has better criteria than what I have. But I always grateful for my outer appearance. Thank God for this nice figure you gave me! (you shall do the same. Not vain)
Well, things regard relationship shall never be in a rush. I agree with the quote quoted by Lilian (finally), "what is yours is yours" with the condition whereby one have to try. I believe God has a better plan in future but I don't restrict love before future mate too. If only you are mine.

Regard future...

There are few ways in looking future career.
First, a career that bring all the glamor and luxuries life.
Second, a career of your own interest and passion.
Third, a career that is destined by people.
Fourth, a career for God.

Perhaps I had told you that I wanted to become a doctor. It's only on my 17 that I realized that the very reason I wanted to become doctor is because of the high pay and you got admiration from people. It's doesn't really sounded like a concept that doctors should have and I hope everyone realize what they really enjoy in.

For me, I finally realized that I never actually like any of the proffesion side career. I'm more toward psychology, bakery (dessert), hotel management (manager of pullman), program manager and so on. But what can all these career guarantee? A life sleep at the roadside perhaps. It's only recently that I found out that I don't have to be rich but a moderate life with enjoyment will be more than enough. (Kinda have the old people's mindset).

Well, leave this to God. It's really hard for me to decide. I wish I can have more than one job. =)

Regard me...

Simple. If you know me then you know me

Didn't know that I ended up writing this long.

Hallelujah

2010-12-08T20:53:00.005+08:00

As you all know, yesterday was my birthday. So, I actually went to startbucks with Tze Syn (her treat) from 3pm till 9pm. Imagine all the time I had wasted hanging outside celebrating birthday. Nah, it isn't a waste of time actually. Well, I enjoyed the day and most importantly I brought Biology reference to Starbucks to study. After sitting for hours, we started to walk around but my I felt sorry for not studying and my mind kept thinking of the content of the Biology book. Half way walking, I stopped (near escalator) I took out my Biology reference book to check the informations. People who walked passed throw a few glance at me. I think I understand what they were thinking but I was seriously worry! See, I'm in LOVE with Biology. Before back, I went in Secret Recipe to buy one slice of cake home to share with my family also as the not-sleeping pill for that night. A bowl of maggie mee helped to keep me awake until 2pm.

Wow, four hours sleep and I hardly open my eyes this morning but what I got was the feel of prepared for whatever that's going to come out. Seriously, I put a lots of effort in Biology. (If only I do the same for Chem).

I love this morning Biology paper 1! OMG! 49 BINGO! I am super happy. Well I got 50 actually but I changed my answer because I don't believe in calculating the numbers of ABCD to determine my answer but it ended up that way was super accurate.

The Biology paper2, I only knew I was smiling. Most of the questions had been spotted by me but I didn't really focus on it, just read through because I dare not to rely on my 7th sense.The structure part was kinda hard as in I have no idea if my answers are acceptable. As for paper 3, I spotted the first experiment but I got stuck in the second experiment. I guess, people are right, birthday girl do have some luck. Thank God! Super happy day!

You know, I experienced few things in these few weeks exam. First, the eraser-pencil lead to darken my objective answer sheet. Second, forget to bring I.C and slip for two times. I got principle to signed anyway. Third, to go to toilet with an inviligator following you. Super cool. Imagine to go toilet with somebody waiting you outside the door. Haha! SPM are really fun days. (I sounded like all my exams ended)

Well, two more papers to go. I'll be having intensive art lesson starting from tomorrow morning. I'm not sure how effective the lesson is but I just see it as to improve my colouring skill. Of course, I'll never forget my Chinese paper. Just no C will be enough! ha! I do HOPE for A. Winking hard...

I went to badminton court from 6pm to 8pm just now. It's super tiring for a person who slept 4 hours and who had stopped any sport for so long. But I never lost my power no matter how long I stopped. I can actually feel the muscle pain now. Ouch. I'm going to suffer tomorrow. T.T

Yah, now, DRAMA! I had bear this temptation for so long (not really...I still watch everyday.)

LINDA CHUNG~ haha...

SeVenTeen

2010-12-07T14:15:00.001+08:00

I received wishes that sounds like spamming my facebook account but it is a great feel because all your friends will only spam you together once in a while. Every single handphone text cheer up my day. Today, I finally turn 17!

I don't blame to have my birthday fall in the middle of the SPM exam because it's indeed a great feel to celebrate birthday with books. I bet you won't do it on your birthday. So, what a special day!

Dunno why but I felt lazy to blog regard my birthday. haha...

Will update again some other day.

Thanks for all the wishes.

Mom's

2010-12-06T16:44:00.006+08:00

Ever since when the use of profanity seems to be a typical language out from my mouth to express anger? Whenever I got angry I'll started scold Mom's (Ta Ma De) . From what I know, these few words doesn't bring any bad meaning but since people use this in scolding, this word is BAD. It is to my conscious that I shouldn't be saying all these words but TMD! (Just allow me to have this for my last time, hopefully before I come out with a new resolution on my 17)

My chemistry paper! TMD! I got 9 wrong for paper 1 which is such a bad result. CHE ME. My paper 2, I couldn't gain back any confident in answering. I was unsure for most of my answers. When I opened the paper 3, I started scolding bad words inside my heart. The paper 3 was like SHIT. I have not read through these experiments! What's this?! I think it's probably because I scolded too much bad words and this is my punishment. I also admitted that I just studied my Chemistry yesterday although the break was actually more than enough but I wasted my time like that. That's why I didn't manage to cover all topics. Nobody to blame but me.

This is why I decided to burn my Chemistry paper 1. I wanted to get my brother help but he doesn't want. He's so mean. I didn't burn it at the end but the paper was scribbled with the word "DAMMIT". I didn't burn it because I am afraid of fire (you might not know this). I got this phobia in contacting or approaching fire place. That's why I never want to light up the Bunsen burner in school during experiments time.

Today I followed Abigail's car back. Wow, such a high tech white elegant Estima. Yet this car embarrassed my brother and I. First, my brother doesn't know how to close the door as the holder part was kinda different from normal cars. So her mom drove away without realizing that my bro took so long to close the door. Abby shouted and her mom stopped the car. I stretched my hand over to close for him. Everyone in school saw it. Super sia soi. After that, we arrived at my house. While I wanted to walk out of the car, I got tripped and nearly fall because of the carpet. Then, I wanted to close the door. I pulled and pushed but it doesn't seem to work. Then Abby said, "press the handle inside". I was laughing badly while closing it . I can see through the window that she and her mom were laughing at us. We two look exactly like kampung people! HA!

Besides, I was super duper blur (it's the mixture of sadness and the blank of my brain actually). Ewen talked to me this afternoon but I was looking at my car. Only after 2minutes he stopped talking I asked, "huh? what you said?" He was like showing me the now-you-know-i-was-talking-to-you face.